SC -:- David Lovejoy's Statement -:- Sat, Nov 10, 2001 at 23:20:12 (EST)

__ don -:- Re: David Lovejoy's Statement -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 06:37:22 (EST)

__ __ PatD -:- Not barking at the moon -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 17:02:38 (EST)

__ __ __ don -:- collateral damages, eh ??? -:- Tues, Nov 13, 2001 at 05:53:42 (EST)

__ Abi -:- know Brendon o'Hara? -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 00:35:35 (EST)

__ __ Gail -:- Re: know Brendon o'Hara? -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 16:42:56 (EST)

__ __ AJW -:- Hi Abi. -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 07:09:05 (EST)

__ __ __ CW -:- Re: Hi Abi. -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 08:01:46 (EST)

__ __ __ __ AJW -:- Who asked you fuckwit? -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 11:57:12 (EST)

__ __ CW -:- Re: know Brendon o'Hara? -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 03:43:29 (EST)

__ __ __ Abi -:- Do you deny this? -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 08:56:19 (EST)

__ __ __ __ CW -:- Re: Do you deny this? -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 19:43:29 (EST)

__ __ __ AJW -:- Hey, anonymous cult drone. -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 07:14:25 (EST)

__ __ __ __ SC -:- see what I mean? -:- Tues, Nov 13, 2001 at 05:57:47 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ AJW -:- Evidence at last. -:- Tues, Nov 13, 2001 at 05:57:22 (EST)

__ __ __ __ CW -:- Re: Hey, anonymous cult drone. -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 07:56:24 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ AJW -:- I don't believe you Cat. -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 18:46:30 (EST)

__ Vicki -:- Re: David Lovejoy's Statement -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 23:09:33 (EST)

__ Joe -:- Hostile Egotism -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 23:07:06 (EST)

__ __ Abi -:- Jagdeo? Luuuurvejoy? -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 09:14:21 (EST)

__ Lesley -:- To David Lovejoy -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 15:32:30 (EST)

__ __ AJW -:- You should be so lucky Lesley. -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 07:04:54 (EST)

__ __ __ Lesley -:- channelling Anth the UnDead -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 14:19:34 (EST)

__ Chuck S. -:- SHAME on these cult apologists like Lovejoy... -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 14:44:24 (EST)

__ __ Abi -:- inner-circle corruption -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 10:35:32 (EST)

__ __ __ Gail -:- Re: inner-circle corruption -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 21:41:50 (EST)

__ __ __ __ SC -:- he still practices K -:- Tues, Nov 13, 2001 at 06:00:21 (EST)

__ __ Vicki -:- Re: SHAME on these cult apologists like Lovejoy... -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 22:32:59 (EST)

__ __ Brian Smith -:- I am beginning to understand why -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 19:34:48 (EST)

__ __ __ gerry -:- ***Quote of the Week*** -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 19:52:46 (EST)

__ __ Suedoula -:- Re: SHAME on these cult apologists like Lovejoy... -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 16:02:03 (EST)

__ __ __ Chuck S. -:- Thank you, Sue, for confirming... -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 17:30:15 (EST)

__ __ __ __ Suedoula -:- Re: Thank you, Sue, for confirming... -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 19:23:30 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ Pat:C) -:- Thank you, Sue -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 19:33:38 (EST)

__ Francesca -:- How many suicides???? -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 12:55:25 (EST)

__ __ hamzen -:- Over 100 known from this forum alone -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 19:47:23 (EST)

__ __ __ Jim -:- Re: Over 100 known from this forum alone -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 01:47:24 (EST)

__ __ __ __ hamzen -:- That's what I made it -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 08:08:09 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ Francesca -:- Search engine -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 13:04:08 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ __ JHB -:- Search engine - Help Welcome! -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 14:44:15 (EST)

__ __ Nick -:- Re: How many suicides???? -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 13:49:03 (EST)

__ __ __ JHB -:- Nick - Please tell us more -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 20:01:59 (EST)

__ __ __ __ Nick -:- Re: Nick - Please tell us more -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 04:32:07 (EST)

__ Suedoula -:- Re: David Lovejoy's Statement -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 10:58:38 (EST)

__ Patrick Wilson -:- Re: David Lovejoy's Statement -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 10:40:38 (EST)

__ __ Pat:C) -:- You're a saint, Patrcik W -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 14:14:05 (EST)

__ Michael Dettmers -:- Re: David Lovejoy's Statement -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 10:25:56 (EST)

__ Katie -:- Response to David Lovejoy's Statement -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 10:21:44 (EST)

__ bill -:- David WILL be reading responses I am sure [nt] -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 08:47:18 (EST)

__ AJW -:- I am not worthy. -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 07:41:26 (EST)

__ __ AJW -:- Hey David Roupell. -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 07:57:55 (EST)

__ __ __ gerry -:- David Roupell irons Lovejoy's shirts, too... [nt] -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 21:23:41 (EST)

__ __ __ __ AJW -:- Has he got a moustache... -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 07:24:22 (EST)

__ Zelda -:- David Lovejoy shows his colors -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 05:27:08 (EST)

__ Pat:C) -:- ***BEST OF FORM***, David Roupell -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 04:54:33 (EST)

__ __ gerry -:- ****BEST OF**** -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 21:31:42 (EST)

__ __ Brian Smith -:- errors and ommissions -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 20:38:11 (EST)

__ __ __ Pat:C) -:- Most of this thread is great [nt] -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 04:08:01 (EST)

__ __ JHB -:- *** NOT BEST OF FORM***, David Roupell -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 18:43:23 (EST)

__ __ __ Cynthia -:- ABSOLUTELY *** NOT BEST OF FORM*** -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 13:13:39 (EST)

__ __ __ __ Stonor -:- Great post Cynthia!!! and ... (ot) -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 23:10:28 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ Cynthia -:- Hi Stoner.... (ot) -:- Tues, Nov 13, 2001 at 10:15:47 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ __ Stonor -:- Thanks Cynthia! :) -:- Tues, Nov 13, 2001 at 15:29:39 (EST)

__ peg -:- Re: David Lovejoy's Statement -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 04:19:32 (EST)

__ RichMandrake -:- David LoveJoy is a Coward and an Apologist.. -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 02:13:59 (EST)

__ __ Vicki -:- Absolutely BEST Of FORUM -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 03:30:11 (EST)

__ Gail MacDougall -:- Dear David Lovejoy--You make me sick! -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 01:46:01 (EST)

__ __ PatD -:- Re: Dear David Lovejoy--You make me sick! -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 16:51:19 (EST)

__ __ CW -:- Re: Dear David Lovejoy--You make me sick! -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 07:04:12 (EST)

__ __ __ Katie -:- Cat, I have to wonder why myself -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 10:37:04 (EST)

__ __ __ __ CW -:- not complicated -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 16:01:15 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ Katie -:- Can't you see the difference? -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 08:03:14 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ AJW -:- Cat the Klingon. -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 07:28:38 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ __ CW -:- Re: Cat the Klingon. -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 08:06:37 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ AJW -:- Hey Cat.... -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 11:58:02 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ CW -:- Re: Hey Cat.... -:- Tues, Nov 13, 2001 at 02:18:39 (EST)

__ __ Pat:C) -:- Encore, Gail -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 05:05:34 (EST)

__ __ __ Katie -:- Gail is great, Pat (sorta ot) -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 10:39:38 (EST)

__ __ __ __ Pat:C) -:- Thanks, Katie. Pleased to meet you, Gail [nt] -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 13:32:21 (EST)

__ Jim -:- Of course he won't be participating -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 00:18:42 (EST)

__ __ Francesca :C) -:- This part is a lie -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 01:42:22 (EST)

__ __ __ Francesca ~) -:- Something else that's strange -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 02:27:40 (EST)

__ __ __ __ CW -:- Re: Something else that's strange -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 07:07:45 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ Abi -:- CV covers up sex abuse again -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 10:43:52 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ Francesca -:- No unfounded at all -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 13:18:52 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ Marianne -:- Catweasel, you are lying about Padarthanand -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 12:17:30 (EST)

__ __ __ __ Nick -:- Re: Something else that's strange -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 06:12:01 (EST)

__ __ __ __ Pat:C) -:- Fran, I don't kow how you have the patience -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 05:12:41 (EST)

__ Sir Dave -:- With hand on heart -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 00:13:43 (EST)

__ __ Zelda -:- UNETHICAL -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 05:32:08 (EST)

__ __ __ magiclara -:- Re: UNETHICAL -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 08:23:17 (EST)

__ __ __ Pat:C) -:- UNETHICAL! But Zelda... -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 05:43:39 (EST)

__ __ __ __ Pat:C) -:- J-M, JHB - THIS THREAD NEEDS... -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 14:39:26 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ JHB -:- I disagree -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 18:59:55 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ __ Jean-Michel -:- My seat is at stake here, need to meditate more -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 03:34:28 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ __ Francesca -:- It should be a BEST OF FORUM -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 01:00:58 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ Katie -:- I disagree, Francesca -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 08:23:52 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Jean-Michel -:- I agree with Katie -:- Tues, Nov 13, 2001 at 03:29:06 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Francesca -:- The personal stuff would have to be edited out -:- Tues, Nov 13, 2001 at 00:23:42 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Deborah -:- How about **Worse of Forum** -:- Tues, Nov 13, 2001 at 16:20:30 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Katie -:- Re: The personal stuff would have to be edited out -:- Tues, Nov 13, 2001 at 08:54:24 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Pat:C) -:- Re: The personal stuff would have to be edited out -:- Tues, Nov 13, 2001 at 13:12:59 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Francesca ~) -:- ***BEST OF FORUM or at least ... -:- Tues, Nov 13, 2001 at 14:08:28 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Pat:C) -:- Re: ***BEST OF FORUM or at least ... -:- Tues, Nov 13, 2001 at 14:44:48 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Pat:C) -:- I was being sarcastic when I said -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 13:54:53 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ __ Pat:C) -:- Re: I disagree - on second thoughts -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 19:31:18 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ la-ex -:- Pat: The Fat-Guru HAS sung.... -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 21:24:11 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Pat:C) -:- Yes, La-ex, the fat guru did bray -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 22:09:08 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ JHB -:- I'm not so sure -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 19:42:16 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Peg -:- There are still loads of premies -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 04:25:17 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ PatD -:- Re: There are still loads of premies -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 19:53:27 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Pat:C) -:- JHB: ''We still have work to do.'' -:- Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 20:14:15 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Tonette -:- It really is a public service. -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 03:45:29 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Pat:C) -:- It sure helped me and .... -:- Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 04:11:21 (EST)

Date: Sat, Nov 10, 2001 at 23:20:12 (EST)
From: SC
Email: None
To: All
Subject: David Lovejoy's Statement
Message:

David asked me to post this...

My name is David Lovejoy, and I live in the same part of Australia as John Macgregor and Michael McDonald whose postings are, I understand, a prominent part of this website. In fact I am the managing editor of the newspaper for which Michael works and to which John contributes. You could say that I know them better than most people do.

I was in India in 1970 and the following year I brought news about Maharaji to Australia. I helped found Divine Light Mission here and acted as its general secretary until early 1975, after which I did the same job in the UK until the end of 1976. I left the organisation then, for reasons I will explain later, and returned to Australia.

Recently a friend gave me copies of what John and Michael have been writing here. They had already both told me that they considered themselves 'ex-premies' but had not indicated the degree to which they were disenchanted. I then wrote a letter to them because I did not want them to assume by my silence that I agreed in any way with their statements. Michael responded with his views, John did not.

As one who has lived through the history of Maharaji's mission in the west both for a longer period and at a higher level than either John or Michael, I would like to comment on what has been said here, particularly by John. In doing so I will use some of my original letter and expand on it.

Stripped down to the core, John's case seems to be that Maharaji is human and Elan Vital is not a democracy. Neither of these insights strikes me as revolutionary. But Michael agrees, and for good measure throws in his belief that 'brain science' may disprove mysticism.

Maharaji's organisation appears to be in a phase of change again. It has been doing that on and off for 30 years and I don't expect it to stop. It remains, and I am sure will remain, a profoundly undemocratic institution. Why should it be anything else?

Only structures into which we are coerced have to be democratic. Where we have no choice about belonging there we have a right to reform. At this stage of western history it is unthinkable that we should be born into or forced into an authoritarian political system, and we would resist it mightily.

But how does that have anything to do with an organisation which we freely choose to join? Are we all going to teach the techniques of Knowledge or is it Maharaji's gig? His organisation is de facto his organisation, and anything less democratic than a spiritual teacher's following is hard to imagine. Business isn't democratic, sport isn't democratic, religion isn't democratic. Democracy is about power and how to share it; it has absolutely nothing to do with Maharaji's work, which we recognise as his work not ours.

Consider why I have had little to do with the organisation since 1976. In that year I argued myself out of a job because of an ethical dilemma: I felt it was unfair to both my family and Maharaji's followers for me to be the arbiter of how much should be spent on the upkeep of my wife and two small children. I was part of the pyramid structure and near the top: nobody questioned what I spent. As it happened it was my family that suffered as I was over-scrupulous about my stewardship, but the argument would be the same if I had behaved self-indulgently like some others we know. The point is that I freely acknowledge Maharaji as the font and origin of the organisation, and in organisational terms that means I am not interested in taking part. I wish him well, and I wish the spread of Knowledge well, I will even help in small ways if they present themselves, but working in an undemocratic organisation is not for me: it throws up too many ethical problems. Unless, of course, I am the undemocratic head myself.

In other words, rather than railing against the fact that there is a pyramid structure necessarily associated with Maharaji I chose to withdraw from it. This seems to be an elementary political perception, but John and Michael have suddenly discovered the undemocratic nature of Elan Vital and wish to proclaim it to the world. In fact Michael tells me that he has known this for twenty years but didn't want to go publicly against 'the party line'. (Is there a 'party line' to proclaim that EV is democratic?)

But it's not just that the organisation is undemocratic. It is in itself an evil empire in John's view. Presumably he doesn't mean that EV goons come round and hang people upside down to collect their cash. Or that wavering premies are kidnapped and reprogrammed. Or that followers are encouraged to consider themselves better than other people or to conduct religious wars against them. There have in fact been two major bad incidents to my knowledge, about which any group should feel ashamed. One is the Jagdeo matter and the other is Fakiranand's violence in 1973. In the time span and magnitude of the organisation I would say that is not a bad batting average for behaviour. I thought Jagdeo was banished, I know Fakiranand was.

Yes, an evil cult sucking the life out of people demands exposure. But is it like that? How many suicides can we attribute to Maharaji? Is there great pressure brought to bear on new people who are interested? For at least the last 20 years anything less like a high pressure sales pitch would be hard to imagine. (When I go to introductory programs these days I feel like standing up and saying, 'Look, ignore these milquetoasts, this stuff is really important!') And are we all jumping out of our skins for fear of the EV thought police? Or is it sinister by virtue of its laidback non-sinister appearance, and manipulative because it eschews manipulation?

Michael takes me up on this and says it is manipulative at every stage because its sole purpose is to persuade people to accept Maharaji and Knowledge. Well yes, that is its sole purpose. It is a question of how it proceeds to that purpose, and if you have had experience of real cult pressure, as John has, it is hard to see much to criticise in EV programs.

I think the organisation is bad in John's eyes because Maharaji is bad. He says it bears rotten fruit and alleges a 'lack of progress - both internal and external - in the lives of most premies', and the failure of 99% of their marriages (these statements are presumably examples of his factual and unembellished research). All this personal failure is Maharaji's fault.

In his statement there is a long litany of things of a petty or selfish nature Maharaji is alleged to have done, few or none of which (going by the context) were personally witnessed by John. Some of them, I don't know, may be true; I'd hate to have my life examined from the outside by a pitiless and hostile witness. Perfect teacher or angry tyrant, the real problem is the presumption of divinity.

In the early days Maharaji allowed to be expressed, and in some ways expressed himself, the idea of his godhood. Comparative cultural studies don't seem to have had much impact on those who keep bringing this up. There they are, freaked out like any card-carrying Christian, Moslem or Jew about the blasphemy of a human declaring himself god. Funny how those thought structures remain long after the content has gone: I can't imagine either John or Michael admitting to being a Christian, but it's the ghost Christian in them that is offended. If you make the claim of godhood in our culture you'd better be ready to follow it up with a miracle or two or else it's the inquisition and the stake. But in India things are very different. It's a commonplace concept and I've heard the most stoned-out and incoherent sadhus referred to as incarnations of Vishnu and nobody think twice about it.

It's an historical fact that Maharaji brought Indian trappings with him when he came to the west. It took a decade for us (and him) to realise that the Knowledge could stand on its own, without the Indian context. In the beginning, at the age of thirteen and fourteen, he said many things which were interpreted differently here than they would have been in his native land. He gradually learned to speak more appropriately to our culture and we learned not to take all that Hindu stuff literally. No, not all of us did; for some people those beliefs are central and they hang on to them as long as possible, even into the premie afterlife it seems. The obsession with what he said in 1973 is a hangover from the time when we projected omniscience on to him. This sort of nonsense was encouraged by Indians who didn't understand how our minds were conceptually unprotected. Like most people I figured that one out in the mid seventies, but John appears to be still dragging it around. Napoleon indeed!

It's also an historical fact that for the first half of the time Maharaji has been in the west it was very hard to hear him. There were printed satsangs, occasional audio tapes and films, but drowning that out night after night in halls all around the world were the most extraordinary things that were being said about him by people like John and Michael and me. Some of them were beautiful but some of them were distinctly insane. For the last decade or so Maharaji's talks have been videotaped and he is finally in control of his own message. And it doesn't include any stuff about his divinity.

Around him, I have no doubt, the traditional respect is paid by those who are consciously on the path of devotion, which by the way is not a weird need by the master, but a standard expression of Indian bhakti. There we go with the cultural relativity again.

Then there's his personal life. As far as I can understand, the criticism here is that he eats and smokes and screws. If he were a Jerry Falwell-style evangelist inveighing against the sins of the flesh we could dob him in for hypocrisy, but I've never heard him advising us to do anything but practise Knowledge. He doesn't actually talk about anything else in public. John says his personal life would be subject to scrutiny if he were a politician but that is true only in moronically religious societies like the US and Afghanistan; in civilised countries, and even still in Australia, those matters are not public business unless they render the politician incapable of doing his job.

What is the accusation? That he is human? That after 27 years his marriage is not going too well? Or simply that these matters are not broadcast via cable or discussed at length in EV newsletters as John apparently thinks they should be.

I have had my own interactions with Maharaji as a person, rather than a remote and revered teacher, and I have never experienced anything but good at his hands. What terrible thing did he do to either John or Michael? In fact, despite John's self-aggrandisement on the net posting, I don't really think he had much personal contact with him at all. I had precious little, but it is enough to keep me from indulging in superficial nitpicking about his character. Whoever Maharaji is, he is not a simple con artist.

To my eye neither Michael nor John has been damaged in any way by the time they chose to give this path. In fact, I am in a position to recall that they were both in desperate straits when they came to Maharaji, and that the quality of both their lives rose tremendously. I witnessed it, and it was no different in my own case.

I can understand a feeling of 'it's over, I'm moving on'. If a personal road comes to an end there's no sense denying it. But these are statements of people who have come to that impasse and believe that the end of their own chapter should be made the end of everyone else's. A personal turning point does not have to be conflated into a general crusade.

In fact what is going on here in Australia is a federal election which has just been won by a government that gloats over scorning every civilised convention. It is sycophantically supporting the US bombing Afghani civilians out of their homes and then turning them away when they arrive on our borders as refugees. Every ounce of energy is needed to oppose this evil and my two best writers are pissing theirs away on this non-issue!

We all like to be noticed, and basking in sudden approval ('a borderline spiritual experience') is a common enough human frailty. For the record, John as a freelance writer has indeed interviewed Australian prime ministers, but his political acumen is considered abysmal by those who do it for a living. The impressive list of FBI and American political contacts are all derived from one visit this year to Florida on a story about government mistreatment of an American refugee to Australia. It resulted in some articles in the national press here, but nothing substantial in America (not John's fault: both the press and politics in Florida are hopelessly corrupt). The refugee in question is still scheduled for deportation.

Writing stuff for the internet is (as I have found by writing this) a strange experience. You feel anonymous even if you are putting your own name to the message. There is a temptation to exaggerate, to make the story sound better. You can forget that although thousands of people may read your posting and believe you because they have no other avenue of information, dozens of them will know you, and know if you are bullshitting. Without listing all the important people I know I leave it to those few dozen to judge my bona fides.

David will not be participating in any forum debate on these issues.

Stay well
SC (David Roupell)

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 06:37:22 (EST)
From: don
Email: None
To: SC
Subject: Re: David Lovejoy's Statement
Message:

yes, I support this view: those democratic nations like u.s.a.,
australia, england, germany , france and italy are committing
mass murder in afghanistan for a criminal bastard whose nation causes
25% air and other pollution and refuses to do anything for climate
protection and who pulls the trigger of the worst patriotic bullshit
in a long time...and those exes have nothing better to do than
barking at the moon..they are as devoted to their cause as rawat is
to his..they are just pissin' in the wind...both of them exes and pwks

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 17:02:38 (EST)
From: PatD
Email: None
To: don
Subject: Not barking at the moon
Message:

Barking at Rawat. Hey Don, smoke a few more chillums, float well above the fence,sitting on it is a bit uncomfortable isn't it?

What are you, some sort of enlightened fucking know all,or a confused dipshit? Here's hoping this flame really fucks up the environment...mass murder in Afghanistan, you've got your head on backwards.

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Date: Tues, Nov 13, 2001 at 05:53:42 (EST)
From: don
Email: None
To: PatD
Subject: collateral damages, eh ???
Message:

[nt]

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 00:35:35 (EST)
From: Abi
Email: None
To: SC
Subject: know Brendon o'Hara?
Message:

I wonder if Lovejoy knew Brendon O'Hara. O'Hara apparently managed the finances for Divine Light Mission in Australia until about ten years ago. He was given money in exchange for his silence. He went to law school with a friend of mine and is now a lawyer over here. Sworn to secrecy and so on. Slghtly sinister. Wonder how many others have been silenced.

Oh and I have to say I find Lovejoy's post desperately self-serving.

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 16:42:56 (EST)
From: Gail
Email: None
To: Abi
Subject: Re: know Brendon o'Hara?
Message:

The person to whom you refer has posted here. (S)he told us the whole story. Is this the person who learned Hindi?

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 07:09:05 (EST)
From: AJW
Email: None
To: Abi
Subject: Hi Abi.
Message:

Hi Abi,

The cult is full of crooks and liars. After all, if you believe Captain Rawat created the Universe, everything, by default, belongs to him anyway. Premies really believe this, along with, 'The only real Truth is the one within''

Therefore stealing and lying for the master is OK.

Anth, watching the waves in Whitsand Bay.

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 08:01:46 (EST)
From: CW
Email: None
To: AJW
Subject: Re: Hi Abi.
Message:

I dont believe that. Nor do most premies you silly old fart.

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 11:57:12 (EST)
From: AJW
Email: None
To: CW
Subject: Who asked you fuckwit?
Message:

Shouldn't you be serving the Living Lord or something?

Get back under you blanket and poke yourself in your eyes premie-ji.

Anth, one in the spirit, brother in his love etc.

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 03:43:29 (EST)
From: CW
Email: None
To: Abi
Subject: Re: know Brendon o'Hara?
Message:

I know Brendon.Where do you get these stories from. That is totally baseless.

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 08:56:19 (EST)
From: Abi
Email: None
To: CW
Subject: Do you deny this?
Message:

Do you deny that he was involved with Divine Light Missions finances?

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 19:43:29 (EST)
From: CW
Email: None
To: Abi
Subject: Re: Do you deny this?
Message:

Yes I do. You have the facts arse about . He was involved , but not with finances..

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 07:14:25 (EST)
From: AJW
Email: None
To: CW
Subject: Hey, anonymous cult drone.
Message:

Who are you?

You have no credibility whatsoever here.

Fuck off. Go stick your thumbs in your ears and listen to god within or something.

I bet you're a real hoot at parties.

Can you think of a single thing you wouldn't do, if asked personally by Captain Rawat Cat? Ugh. My spine shivers to think how low you would go.

Tell me something you'd refuse to do Cat. Something would make even a toe kissing, long-time, career premie fanatic like yourself say, 'Enough is enough Captain. I won't eat that...Etc'

Come on Cat, try and think of something you wouldn't do, if it was "personal agya".

Anth, openuppayourheart to the Universe of Love and heeeeee will empty your baaaaank accoooount.

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Date: Tues, Nov 13, 2001 at 05:57:47 (EST)
From: SC
Email: None
To: AJW
Subject: see what I mean?
Message:

You're a changed man Anth, suddenly you're a spiteful prick talking like the forum wolverines.

what gives?

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Date: Tues, Nov 13, 2001 at 05:57:22 (EST)
From: AJW
Email: None
To: SC
Subject: Evidence at last.
Message:

Yes SC, you've got me.

I'm all washed up, without love and direction, full of bitterness, choking on my own bile. You've got my number. Shit I wish I had your insight into humanity SC. But here I am, rotting away like a cabbage, when I could have been a disciple of the Living Lord, like John, Hanuman, Arjuna, St Paul, SC and Catweasele.

Yup, you've got me SC. I'm all washed up and bitter because I left the lotus feet.

Why didn't you answer my question (below) by the way SC?

Anth, time to go and kick a kitten, drink some meths, beat my wife up, and score some smack.

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 07:56:24 (EST)
From: CW
Email: None
To: AJW
Subject: Re: Hey, anonymous cult drone.
Message:

I woke up in a Soho Bar.......A policeman said to me...
'Who are you ,who -oo are you....'
I wouldn't eat shit so stop feeding it to me..
You can be pathetic Anth...Pathetic.
Who do you think you are kidding???

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 18:46:30 (EST)
From: AJW
Email: None
To: CW
Subject: I don't believe you Cat.
Message:

I think you would eat shit if the Captain told you to.

Where's your faith? Don't you know he's the creator? Didn't you read the Indian stories?

It will turn into nectar before it touches your tongue, dumbo.

Come now Cat', admit it, you'd eat it right, if it was personal agya?

Anth, who loves intellectual banter with burnt-out guru worshippers.

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 23:09:33 (EST)
From: Vicki
Email: None
To: SC
Subject: Re: David Lovejoy's Statement
Message:

This entire thread is packed to the brim with intelligent responses to the above post. It would be a shame for it to get lost.

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 23:07:06 (EST)
From: Joe
Email: None
To: SC
Subject: Hostile Egotism
Message:

God, Lovejoy, who the hell do you think you are? And are you always this hostile? You might take a look at your motivations, as they seem quite confused, hence your post sounds wacky. Also, if you knew Maharaji wasn't God in the mid-7os, when he openly claimed to be for almost a decade after that, why didn't you tell the rest of us if you were so damn smart? I personally don't believe that statement, David.

For anyone who wants an example of the open hostility that cult members can inflict on those who leave that those who study cults talk about, Lovejoy's post is a perfect example. The attempts to smear John MacGregor are disgusting, and really, David, they make you sound very petty and stupid. You can't really respond to the actual allegations, instead you attack the person who made them.

Also, it appears from what you said that you aren't all that concerned about the welfare of John and Michael, the only thing you care about is that they talk about how they feel publicly, and you want desperately to engage in damage control. Can't Maharaji defend himself?

Your characterization of why John is upset with Maharaji ignores the main one, and that's the abysmal way Maharaji has handled the Jagdeo situation. He allowed a known pedophile to continue to have access to children, and then when all of it comes to light years later, he not only lies about it, he abuses the victims and accuses them of making it up. That really sucks, David, and you don't even bother to address John's main concern.

You know, David, if your master would actually engage in an open discussion with all of us, he could help himself immensely. All he has to do is come down from his lofty heights, talk to people like normal human beings, take responsibilty for the damage he has caused and try to correct it, which is something I am sure you would expect of anyone who wasn't your cult-leader and hence exempt from all normal expectations. If Maharaji did that, if he actually had some integrity and showed some interest in the welfare of others, you wouldn't be reduced to making such embarrassing statements in his defense, like that the problems with Maharaji that John raises are 'superficial nitpicking.' That's absurd, David.

Just in answer to your question:

What is the accusation? That he is human? That after 27 years his marriage is not going too well? Or simply that these matters are not broadcast via cable or discussed at length in EV newsletters as John apparently thinks they should be.

I think it's hilarious that you and Erika Andersen speak of the fact that Maharaji took advantage of his exhaulted position, and the immense imbalance in power positions, to have sex with his female devotees as 'marital problems,' or in your case, that Maharaji's 'marriage isn't going to well.' I don't think any of us care how well his marriage is going. But sexual exploitation of followers by Gurus and other spiritual con-men is a serious and repeated problem. The fact that it happens with Maharaji is extremely relevent information for anyone who is involved with him, or considering getting involved with him. The fact that you would write it off as just marriage problems misses the point entirely.. But I think you would rather obfuscate and change the subject rather than really address and issue you know you can't address directly. That's what Erika does, too, and it's really dishonest, it really is.

In addition, now that we know he has had an ongoing mistress for many years, one has to question what HER views of him are, as well. What are the power dynamics in that relationship?

Plus, the fact that Maharaji has worked so very, very hard to hide his personal failings from his followers and the world, while at the same time parading around in front of all of us as the perfect family man, says a lot about the kind of deceitful person he is, and, again, is extremely relevent as to whether anyone would want him as a 'master.' It's not that these things should be 'broadcast,' it's that people are entitled to know the kind of person Maharaji is and not have that hidden from them.

And another thing that John mentioned and most of us have complained about is that Maharaji is a liar. He lies about how he used to claim to be God, and he, like you, blames the Mahatamas and others for the 'Lord of the Universe' period. If you look on the EV website, there is a video clip of Maharaji blatantly lying about that.

So, David, if you were looking for a 'master' do you think you would select one who lies about something that basic? If he lies about his own past, how could you possibly trust him to be your spiritual 'master?' Isn't that kind of trust that your 'master' is telling the truth kind of basic?

And the fact that you won't even discuss any of this publicly, and instead engage in this hit and run tactic, speaks volumes for how you think your views would stand up to the light of day.

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 09:14:21 (EST)
From: Abi
Email: None
To: Joe
Subject: Jagdeo? Luuuurvejoy?
Message:

I agree with yout take his avoidance of an important issue. Once again, the whole issues is covered up. The only real reference to Jagdeo on any of the EV sites popped after I wrote her a letter. I mentioned Jagdeo and told her to say Hi to Valerio Pascotto. She failed to reply to me but soon after she published a letter from someone called OK, Amerca which was slghtly sympathetic, insofar as an EV response could go. It was even a bit risky because it admitted that there were two sides to every issue -Charanand had mentioned this over dinner when OK was chatting to him about it all.

For me this letter meant several things basic and not so basic things:

1. it meant they'd responded to my letter

2. it connected Valerio Pascotto to the EV webmasters

3. it told me that Charanand had been discussing Jagdeo with someone, possible Valerio

4. it performed a really pathetic attempt at sympathy

5. it told me that there were going to stick to their story because, after all, as Charanand said, there are two stories. And we don't really think, do we, that Charanand would go against Maharaji.

6. It made it clear to me that there were going to stick to their story and they would continue to discredit my father for telling Charanand so many, many years ago. They would say that Charanad was never told. They've already done this with the people Susan told and they have now done it with Charanand. They cancelled his Perth tour, poor thing. I was thinking of turning up in a black leather jacket with a very articulate and pissed of girlfriend or two.

And Lovejoy, if you are reading this, I have your name marked down along those lines. There might be two stories, but I am sticking to mine and there is nothing EV can do about it. You will not shut me up. By the way, I'm a writer.

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 15:32:30 (EST)
From: Lesley
Email: None
To: SC
Subject: To David Lovejoy
Message:

Dear David,

If you are reading this thread then you are probably beginning to think that you have opened a can of worms; I hope you take the time to read everyone's responses and digest what they are saying to you.

One thing you said that I take exception to:

'There may be a great debate going on at the ex-premie website but there is not in the community here in Byron Shire.'

It brings up an interesting question for me; What do you consider that community to be? what happens when someone ceases to be a premie, do they fall off the back of the world, cease to exist?

I live here in Byron Shire and have personally debated the issue of Mr Rawat's 'divinity' with you.

So, when you say that there is no debate, must I conclude that I am no longer a member of your Byron Shire community? Considering that I am still here, still value and respect the friendship we have, and considering that I do debate the validity of Mr Rawat's ministry, the only definition of your phrase 'community of Byron Shire' that fits the bill is 'community of believers in Maharaji that live here'.

Still wanna say that you are not in a cult, David, or would you rather dismiss my conversation as the ravings of a lunatic, after all I am one of those people who had a breakdown.

Look after yourself, love Lesley

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 07:04:54 (EST)
From: AJW
Email: None
To: Lesley
Subject: You should be so lucky Lesley.
Message:

Hi Lesley,

OK, so you're no longer considered a member of the local community because you no longer believe. That's nothing. One of my premie pals told me I was now 'dead'.

Anth the Zombie.

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 14:19:34 (EST)
From: Lesley
Email: None
To: AJW
Subject: channelling Anth the UnDead
Message:

Hi Anth,

No-one has gone so far as to tell me I am dead yet! I have been hammered by 'righteous' anger, and I have been cold shouldered, people have flinched away in fear and loathing, and others have portrayed me incorrectly and cruelly, but I don't think I have actually been described as dead yet, lol.

It is not 'if you like it fine, if not, walk'. It is 'if you like it fine, if not, then we will boot you as far away as we can.'

Well, guess what, that doesn't work. And when I see a person trashing their real friendships, as David Lovejoy has just done, I will call them on it.

Lesley, the Evil Princess of Darkness.

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 14:44:24 (EST)
From: Chuck S.
Email: None
To: SC
Subject: SHAME on these cult apologists like Lovejoy...
Message:

... who bends over backwards to defend the indefensible. And of course, like all the cult apologists who want their hit-and run statements posted here, he doesn't want to talk to us about it. Just like the folks on the ''Please Consider This'' and other cult apologist websites. All their little apologist one-side statements work just fine, as long as no one scrutinizes them for holes. Just like their Master, they don't like to have to answer questions. Just leave no room for doubt in your mind, and everything works fine.

What made me leave the cult wasn't Maha's personal life, what he said in the seventies, Jagdeo, or moral ''christian'' judgements about the way maha lives. It was the lies, the secrets, the cover-ups, the dishonesty, and the expectation that I should go along with it, if I valued what maha was ofering. The willingness to look the other way when abuse occurred. The unwillingess to look at or consider anything Maharaji doesn't want you to consider, for his self-serving reasons.

Lovejoy's post was lame and really a thinly disguised attack, an attempt to smear Michael and John's credibility. And talk about spin control! There is one statement in particular that I would like to comment on. Lovejoy says:

''For the last decade or so Maharaji's talks have been videotaped and he is finally in control of his own message. And it doesn't include any stuff about his divinity.''

M has been making videos for much longer than a decade. I recieved Knowledge in the early 1980's. I ''kept in touch'' via videos starting the late 1980's, as well as attending occasional programs. I missed most of that ''God'' stuff, and what little I did hear was usually by hippy premies in the Haight-Ashbury. I was advised by M's instructors to ''ignore the old hippies''. The foot-kissing thing, which I did about three times, seemed like a goofy, silly Indian custom. I did it because it was the only way I had to get near M., and because everyone acted like it was such a big deal. The third time I did it, I began to wonder what the big deal was, it didn't do anything for me. Well, presto, all the Indian stuff started to disappear, and I thought, fine. The less religion the better.

It seemed like M was going to make Knowledge simple. And it was NOT a religion, I was told when I recieved K. I was attracted to M and K because it was NOT like christian religions I was familiar with (or so I thought). It was about an experience, very simple. The Indian stuff was going, and I was GLAD.

So when ''Arti'' came back in the late 1990's, I was shocked. At first I thought it was some one-time-only nostalgia thing M was doing for old time premies. One man in the audience totally freaked out at one of the Longbeach events when Arti was being sung, and had to be escorted out by security. I guess he thought M. was just a meditation teacher. But so had I. I was one of the first to get the new 'K-lite', and I believed it.

I began to notice more of the old practices comming back. I heard Darshan was happening in Amaroo, for those who could afford to go. In his videos (RECENT ones), M. would talk about the Master, and how he was NOT a mere teacher, but a Master, and then talk about other Masters, like his father, and others like Krishna and Jesus, and he began to use Hindu scriptures, and religious stories about Krishna and Arjune and more and more Indian religious stuff. HEY, I thought this WASN'T a religion?

His satsangs, especially the ones he gave in Amaroo, became increasingly paranoid, in a religous way I recognized as being similar to the way fudamentalist christians would warn people to be wary of non-believers. He even once used the story of Krishna telling Arjune to kill his relatives and friends in a sick way. Arjune didn't want to kill his relatives and friends, and Krishna, the Master, said it didn't matter. Why? Maharaji explained; they didn't have Knowlege, and therefore, IT WAS JUST AS IF THEY WERE ALREADY DEAD ANYWAY, so it didn't matter! I was horrified.

Maharaji would often talk about The Master, in the third person, as if he were talking about someone else, but everyone of course knew he meant himself, and preached obedience to the Master and to never doubt, don't listen to the doubtmaker. I kept thinking, ''Don't doubt WHAT? My breath? What was he getting at?''

At one of the committee meetings I was on, we were discussing something and our local Industrial Stenghth Church Lady blurted out ''But there are some thing's Maharaji just CAN'T SAY in public!'' I was dumbfounded. I thought, ''Like what, that he's GOD?'' But before I could say that the group discussion moved on.

I've been watching the same videos for the past 20 years as these folks writting the apologist posts. Who do they think they are kidding? Yes Maharaji does not actually say he is ''God'' anymore, at least NOT DIRECTLY. But indirectly! You bet! In fact, if you got K in the seventies, then YOU KNOW.

I participated in commitee meetings and helped at video events right up untill 10 months ago. I know what the Knowledge Lite version is that is presented to aspirants, and I know all about the different videos (I helped with the library, and putting the color coded dots on the videos, so people woudn't get ''confused'' watching the wrong ones first). I know about how M. is presented to new people, I know how the premies, especially the '70's premies, relate to M., and I know what was being asked of premies who wished to ''participate''. I was there.

I used to feel more tolerant towards cult appologists like Lovejoy and the folks who write on ''Please Consider This''. I had used many of the excuses and rationalizations they do. And you know, they do work, as long as you consider nothing else. Hence, ''Leave no room for doubt in your mind''.

That, in the end, was the straw that broke the camels back for me. What kind of ''TRUTH'' only works if you don't scrutinize it? Why was I being asked to sacrifice honesty in order to be happy? What kind of a person asks you to do that?

I was never one of those people who was supposedly disappointed that the Indian stuff went away, as the cult apologists are so fond of claiming about exes. Quite the opposite actually. I AM one of those people who got tired of doing mental backflips, making excuses for bad behaviour, of being asked to keep secrets, of being lied to, of being exploited like a resource. Tired of having a so-called ''teacher'' who never let me graduate, or even talk about my exeriences, but just pumped me for all he could get, until I faced the fact that I'd been lied to and used, that K-lite was bullshit, M. doesn't say what he means, or mean what he says, he just says what he WANTS, and thinks we should think that's just fine, and be grateful.

When I finally left, it was because I realized he was too embarrasing to introduce to anyone I knew, and the more I learned about him, the more I was ''not proud'' to be associated with him, and what he is doing now.

I had thought Erika Anderson was ''nice'' when she posted here. Perhaps she is, she says she is. I recognize her face from her picture on her website, I'd seen her at programs. I know she's seen the same videos I have. I can only imagine that she didn't really read much of the information on the EPO website, and is desparately clinging to the apologist excusemaking, perhaps because she has a much greater emotional need, a much greater emotional INVESTMENT in her beliefs about Maharaji, than I did. It was hard enough for me, even though I was really a ''fringe'' premies. I know it may be even harder still for others.

But I have to say this. This apologist stuff is not harmless. It is the ''smiley face'', the cover-up, for the cult that is responsible for the CAC attack websites. The cult apologists are just trying to legitimize the cult that allows these attacks to continue. THEY HELP MAKE IT POSSIBLE. I left the cult because I did not want to be tainted with it's deceptions, lies, secrets and hurtful actions. Those who choose to stay with the cult and apologise and make excuses for it may one day find that THEY are tainted.

The Knowlege-Lite ''Maharaji as a Teacher'' propaganda these revisionists keep spouting is a lie, it's the bait they use to lure people into becoming interested in Maharaji, so they can begin an indoctrination process to seduce people into believing M is something much much more. Maharaji is teaching that Old Time Guru woship religion, like he always has, only he's being secretive and sly about it. Lovejoy's uses disingenuous spin control like a slippery weasel. Shame on him! Shame on all these cult apologists. They are supporting, promoting and maintaining something very deceitful. And dangerous.

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 10:35:32 (EST)
From: Abi
Email: None
To: Chuck S.
Subject: inner-circle corruption
Message:

wow, that was really fascinating. I didn't realise how many cracks there were but I guess it all makes sense. It is so creepy that EV seduces people. They have copied the corporatization of the new age - same flaccid ethics — but unlike a lot of those new age corporate groups this one is hiding something especially sinister. Like worshipping a human being as a god.

At the centre of EV, after you've travelled that long river of EV rhetoric, you are confronted with a heart of darkness and instead of a maniac God saying 'the horror, the horror!' you have a maniac God saying 'the beauty, the beauty!'. Things don't get more creepy than that. The potential for abuse is massive and seductive to those who worship the maniac because they will do anything to make him happy because it means he will give them special attention and who doesn't want to be noticed by God.

It follows that the people closest to him are the most corrupt because to get there and stay there they will have had to do things which decent people do not. Like habour a pedophile; cover up a murder and a rape or two; rip people off quite a lot, maybe all the time; get into drug deals; cover up a prostition ring; joke about the sexual abuse of premie women and so on. Marcia Lietner is part of this inner circle. Valerio Pascotto and their family are also part of this circle. Charanand is part of it. All the old initiators, some of the new ones.
The only thing I haven't really decided for myself is if they are just plain corrupt people or if they are really morally stunted by the brinwashing. What finaslly ends up deciding it for me is the sense that in the end they have made an internal decision to practice corruption because it gives them pleasure. In the end it doesn't matter why they get pleasure from it, whether they are sad gopis or cynical operators, the bottom line is that they gain pleasure practicing corruption. For the corrupt inner circle the pleasure is in the KNOWLEDGE of CORRUPTION and the corruption of knowledge.

And hey, premies, how many times have you been told it's inside. Why do you have to stick around to be reminded constantly, over and over again - the same message, a thousand times, year after year, decade after decade. The experience you have of your life is yours you don't need someone givng it to you. He didn't teach you to breath. You can breath without him. You wont die or go crazy, you will keep on breathing. So you can breath. Great. It's time to walk. It's difficult learning to walk because you fall over all the time but that shouldn't mean that you just give up and stay sitting on the floor rejoicing in the fact that you can breath. And by the way when I was a very earnest young premie I really tried remembering holy name or practicing all day and it turned me into a hyperventilating zombie. But that is what he wanted - he said so over and over again. Rawat wants to control your breathing - it's an effective brainwashing technique. What's the thing you do most ever day - breath. If you get people to associate their breath with an idea, a concept, a person, then you've managed to brainwash them. And he was so aggressive about it too. Sometimes he actually screamed his head off at us.
You must remember holy name all the time!!! Don't listen to Mr Mind!!! Leave no room for doubt in your Mind!! Always attend satsang, meditate and do service as much as you can!!... or you wil rot in hell like only ex-premies can. Ex-premies are what happens when you stop 'meditating', 'practicing' or whatever it's called now.

After Valerioe read the first open letter I wrote to Rawat, in which I described what a very earnest little child fanatic I had been, he asked my father what had happened to me. 'She used to be so beautiful, so sweet, what happened to her?' And my father said 'Well, she stopped meditating, and something has to replace that'. In other words I was the Mind of an ex-premie, disturbed, corrupt, twisted, angry, with an evil agenda which possibly meant harming Rawat psychically and harming those around him. Valerio was freaked out by it all and I am certain he is involvded in CAC in someway. He even shook when he showed me a couple of the posts made about him after I had released his name on the forum. He said that I had encouraged people to hound him down and threaten his life. I asid I wasn't sure why everthing had to be so secretive and that surely they should come clean about the Jagdeo issue and own up that something was amiss, at least in some public way. But they wouldn't say a thing, and to say sorry, as Valerio pointed out, is to enter into a legal world. All they said was 'we are concerned about your suffering, we will offer therapy but only on the condition that you remain silent and sign on this dotted line'. If that's not a continuation of a long, long cover-up then what is. Even though I know this intlelctually, I still can't wuite face it emotionally. Sometimes I do and I feel deeply sickened by the thought of all the other childrn out there who were raped, sexually abused, emotionally and spiritually harmed. And even if they were 'just' stroked a little too much, the fact that they were growing up in such an environment means that they would have been warped anyway. I know because that is what happened to me and most of the children I grew up with then feel the same way. I didn't really talk about it much for years but it was always there distorting everything I saw. When I did tell people they were so shocked that I felt like a freak. As I got older and found a way of understanding what it meant to have grown up in a cult I felt really angry that my life had been so polluted by so much brainwashing. I began to see the damaging effects in myself and people around me. It was a challenging shock. Rawat tried to take my life from me. I mean that in the sense that he wanted to control my mind for my entire life.

For while I tired to pass it off as some harmless social experiment my parents had been in and my father stayed with but he more I talked and the more detail I gave people the more they reflected back to me that the cult is sick. Well, actually for most people the word cult sums it up. I don't think premies really understand just how many people out there would take five min to call Elan Vital a cult. How easy it is to see past all the EV corporate new age rhetoric. I guess a few lost souls still get trapped by it. But a greater awareness that Elan Vital is a cult should stop that from happening too much. Bring it on!

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 21:41:50 (EST)
From: Gail
Email: None
To: Abi
Subject: Re: inner-circle corruption
Message:

It's none of my business. Is your Dad still with the cult?

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Date: Tues, Nov 13, 2001 at 06:00:21 (EST)
From: SC
Email: None
To: Gail
Subject: he still practices K
Message:

and is one of the most beautiful, funny, sensitive and intelligent men you will ever not meet. :)

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 22:32:59 (EST)
From: Vicki
Email: None
To: Chuck S.
Subject: Re: SHAME on these cult apologists like Lovejoy...
Message:

This is an incredable posting, very powerful and succinct. This is the power behind this forum, that different perspectives when put together, begin to melt the puzzle and maze M and Elan Vital created. They get exposed, bit by bit, piece by piece. The blurry vision that kept us entangled starts to snap into focus and we can see it for what it is. We are able to heal a little more.

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 19:34:48 (EST)
From: Brian Smith
Email: None
To: Chuck S.
Subject: I am beginning to understand why
Message:

my Indian friends and associates react the way they do when I tell them of my past experience with a guru. The typical reaction borders between amusement and/or disdain. The conversation usually comes up when I tell them that I have been to India and they ask me why did I go there?

Even when I was in India years ago in 72 many of the locals that I encountered informed me that dime a dozen charlatan spiritual predators like maharaji are frauds, imposters, and are to be taken with a grain of salt. A new guru can be found on every street corner in India, the competition there is fierce and it is easy to see why m's ambitions took him elsewhere.

Maharaji's rise was due to the fact that he presented a unique package,(14 year old guru/god) to a new unsaturated market (the western baby boomers). That was probably the last major marketing decision made and M has milked this market to the final remaining drips. He has been riding this one big wave for 30 years.

The problem is every wave ultimately hits the beach and m's wave is cresting just offshore.

The energy is running out of the organization and the best damage control procedures only poke bigger holes in the structure.

I didn't get out because of how maharaji lives either, I wasn't that enamored with his example, but I rationalized it away with this inner experience blitz and brainwash. You know the drill, pay attention to what is going on inside, the rest of what is happenning is maya and lila

.Well Bullshit, M doesn't get to play with my thoughts and emotions under the guise that it's all a divine game and I am supposed to be the butt of the masters whims, jokes and rules. No more I say......

For instance, Lets see if I can keep Brian thinking that I am really a divine being by becoming a philandering, drunken, pedophile protecting, hit and run murderous two bit nickel and dime money grubbing greedy greasy spiritual conman.

Brian's job is to look past all of this, never doubt just stay focused on the pure message, breathe in and out, don't ask questions, particularly about me because Brian isn't capable of understanding who I am anyway the lowly rotting vegetable that he is.

Now that's just a bit too much don't you think?

I got out because like you Chuck, I as well could not continue to contribute to the dysfunction, the lies, the secrets, the fantasy, the dishonesty, the myth's and the prevailing insidious notion that I would be willing to go to any lengths to support the further perpetration of this farce.

I got out to keep my senses and self dignity intact.

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 19:52:46 (EST)
From: gerry
Email: None
To: Brian Smith
Subject: ***Quote of the Week***
Message:

Brian:

...Lets see if I can keep Brian thinking that I am really a divine being by becoming a philandering, drunken, pedophile protecting, hit and run murderous two bit nickel and dime money grubbing greedy greasy spiritual conman.

LOL

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 16:02:03 (EST)
From: Suedoula
Email: None
To: Chuck S.
Subject: Re: SHAME on these cult apologists like Lovejoy...
Message:

Chuck,

Thank you for this thoughtful, well written post. It hits the nail on the head so many times.

You wrote:
What kind of ''TRUTH'' only works if you don't scrutinize it?

Isn't it surprising that more pwks aren't getting this? Don't question, don't doubt. Aren't you glad you finally asked 'Why?'

You also wrote:
I had thought Erika Anderson was ''nice'' when she posted here. Perhaps she is, she says she is. I recognize her face from her picture on her website, I'd seen her at programs. I know she's seen the same videos I have. I can only imagine that she didn't really read much of the information on the EPO website, and is desparately clinging to the apologist excusemaking, perhaps because she has a much greater emotional need, a much greater emotional INVESTMENT in her beliefs about Maharaji, than I did. It was hard enough for me, even though I was really a ''fringe'' premies. I know it may be even harder still for others.

From my experience with Erika, I think this is true. She is nice. And also very emotionally invested in her life with K. Believing otherwise would pull the proverbial rug out from under. It's unfortunate that people like Erika who believe so strongly will have such a hard time letting go. I was thinking of that when I read Pat's post about the jet setters closest to M. They hang around and perpetuate the myth because it elevates and gives them some kind of perverted social status. The rest of those pwks who are sincerely trying to live the life M has laid out for them are going to fall hard someday. I wonder who will be there to catch them.

It was the revisionist attitude that got me. I remember when we just didn't say that sort of stuff out loud anymore but kept it like our 'secret club password.' I was talking to someone once who had been around almost as long as I was and said something about how we just didn't talk about M in that way any longer, but in our hearts we knew it was true and she looked at me as if I had 3 heads and said, 'No, M said it wasn't true. We all misunderstood his message.' Luckily by that time, I was much less emotionally invested and well on my way to a normal life. I looked at her incredulously and walked away and never looked back.

Thank you for affirming what I suspected all along. The message is the same and has never changed. Same ol' same ol' deceit and lies. Just wearing a sheepkin coat.

Best to all,
Susan

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 17:30:15 (EST)
From: Chuck S.
Email: None
To: Suedoula
Subject: Thank you, Sue, for confirming...
Message:

...what I've suspected about Erika, that she really is nice, but heavily invested emotionally in M and K. I really hate to critisize her because of that. I realize it may be true for some of the other cult apologists as well. I really don't want to be attacking premies, I remember all too well being one not long ago.

Still, I have to say these CAC attack websites are making things very difficult for me. The latest site that lists my name also has the name of my restuarant in the meta tags of the site, in hopes that the site will be pulled up when my customers do a websearch for my restaurant. Both Pat and I are being smeared by this hate campaign, we've never ''stalked'' anyone, but we have indeed been stalked.

For legal reasons, I can't go into details on this forum presently. We are o.k., we aren't afraid. But as I told the police when I filed my harrassment complaint, the CAC sites are multiplying, and they are specifically targeting my business and trying to undermind my ability to earn an income to support myself, in an agressive effort to silence us and prevent us from speaking out about our expriences on this forum. This is really creepy.

I am thankful that the officers who wrote up the report took my complaint very seriously, and even asked for details and asked a lot of intelligent questions. I strongly urge anyone who has been listed on a CAC site to report it to their local police department. I am also following up other avenues of complaint, and will share this information as I learn more.

For these reasons, I have found the apologist arguments more disturbing than ever, because they are trying to put a good face on this criminal behaviour, and thereby are HELPING to make it possible. It's hard to accept that ''nice'' people are helping to justify this behavior. It's also been painful :'(

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 19:23:30 (EST)
From: Suedoula
Email: None
To: Chuck S.
Subject: Re: Thank you, Sue, for confirming...
Message:

Chuck,

You present an aspect to this all that I hadn't considered. I guess I figured that those who created and condoned such nonsense as the CAC sites were a different group of people from the 'nice' ones that I knew. But it does seem like the German public, who weren't part of the Reich but supported it just the same. What a tangled web!

I hope things work out for both you and Pat and the rest of those involved.

Best,
Susan Stein Pszenitzki

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 19:33:38 (EST)
From: Pat:C)
Email: pdconlon@hotmail.com
To: Suedoula
Subject: Thank you, Sue
Message:

I wish you the very best in life, health, happiness and prosperity.

That sure is a helluva tongue-twister name you've got there. ;)

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 12:55:25 (EST)
From: Francesca
Email: None
To: SC
Subject: How many suicides????
Message:

You tell me how many suicides, David Lovejoy, since you are supposed to be someone who knows enough about your organisation to tear down MacGregor and McDonald. Someone who knows the facts.

You said:
Yes, an evil cult sucking the life out of people demands exposure. But is it like that? How many suicides can we attribute to Maharaji?

Apparently you either don't know or figure that since you are supposed to know and assert that there weren't many suicides, you can whitewash over that one. Do you assume that most of the premies reading your apologist 'smoke and mirrors don't know either, so they will take your bold statement as a relief?

There were four suicides in the Vancouver area alone (Vancouver, British Columbia, Cananda). I knew one of these people, David Weiner. He committed suicide when he lived in the ashram. We're not talking about some raving street person in the back of the satsang hall every night, here. There are other suicides that have been reported on the expremie forums, and I have not made a count of them. An aspirant committed suicide in San Francisco less that a year ago. Abi mentioned that one of Jagdeo's victims eventually committed suicide.

For myself, in the ashram in 1978-82, dedicating my life to Maharaji, in his ashram, under his rules had become so depressing that several months before I decided to move out of the ashram I used to pray I would die in my sleep. Why? Because 'leaving your Lotus feet, oh where would I go?' The ashram was the ultimate, Mararaji's shelter. We had ashram meetings with Maharaji where he reinforced this belief. So if one did not want to live in the ashram, one was supposedly going backwards in life -- back into 'the maya,' back into 'the world.' And 'the world' was sold to us as a place that was not 'Maharaji's world.' Luckily I was able to deconstruct that belief system and see that it was bogus -- that 'the world' is a state of mind, that I am not separated into 'mind' and 'heart,' and that all those satsangs that I heard making me feel like I was a hopeless insignificant speck, literally 'dust under his Lotus feet,' were a crock of shit. I did not need to be saved; I needed to live the life I'd been given. I did not need Mararaji's "shelter"; indeed, his shelter was part of the problem. I am not a "child" needing a "father." My old friend David, apparently, was not so lucky.

For someone who is 'in the know,' you hide the truth behind your bold statements, just like your master. If you are someone who really does know the facts, that makes your post all the more unethical.

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 19:47:23 (EST)
From: hamzen
Email: None
To: Francesca
Subject: Over 100 known from this forum alone
Message:

During a discussion here a couple of years back, when the numbers posting here were a lot less.

I would hate to think what the actual figure was.

Difficult to say at what level was gm's culpability, but in a number of cases there was clear proof that the individuals feeling of unworthiness, that k was working so I must be somehow impure, or thinking of pulling back, fear of the rotting vegetables effect, none of these factors can have helped.

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 01:47:24 (EST)
From: Jim
Email: None
To: hamzen
Subject: Re: Over 100 known from this forum alone
Message:

Ham,

Are you sure about this? You've mentioned it before but I just don't remember. I know that we've had several discussions re suicides. Once several of us posted some names we knew. For instance, I knew about six myself including my old summer camp friend, Dave Wener, who only lost it because of the pain and confusion of doubting Maharaji and hung himself while living in the ashram. But I don't recall actually tallying up the suicides like that. Did we really?

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 08:08:09 (EST)
From: hamzen
Email: None
To: Jim
Subject: That's what I made it
Message:

Remember tallying it as it went along, I remember being quite shocked by the numbvert of people here who knew of a premie suicide, and there was very little overlap in the names being mentioned.

I'm usually quite reliable on stats, but have you got the address fort the search engine and I'll check back.

On the global warming one, still checking some stuff out, but a couple of those links got some bells ringing,
as with you in general now I take the line that if all recognized practitioners of a subject are in agreement then the chances are quite high that they're accurate, we'll see,
I'll get back to ya on that one.

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 13:04:08 (EST)
From: Francesca
Email: None
To: hamzen
Subject: Search engine
Message:

I don't think it searches anything recent, though. JHB said he was checking into the problems with it.
[ search engine ]

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 14:44:15 (EST)
From: JHB
Email: None
To: Francesca
Subject: Search engine - Help Welcome!
Message:

I want to look at the archive search situation, but I haven't had the time to do anything yet. If anyone has the technical skills, time, and inclination to take on this task, please write to me.

John.

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 13:49:03 (EST)
From: Nick
Email: None
To: Francesca
Subject: Re: How many suicides????
Message:

When I first read David Lovejoy's letter, it left me quite cold and unimpressed. A couple of hours later I felt that I ought to re-read it, and try to keep an open mind to any constructive criticism / commntary he may have to offer.

Coldness turned increasingly to anger as I saw how he has tried to trivialise the whole essence of this Forum and to vilify his two work colleagues. In effect, he comes over as a nasty and insidious piece of work.

Anyway, he might need reminding that when he became UK National Director, his predecessor (or maybe the one before him) was forced to resign his post precisely because of a high profile suicide of a premie who had had close contact with m in London residences. It was widely reported in the press that the reason for the suicide was the discovery by the unfortunate woman that m 'had feet of clay'. Of course, the whole incident was hushed up in premieland.

Most of the people posting here have had the same realisation of the 'feet of clay', many relatively recently after up to close on 30 years of accepting and responding to m's 'idea of his godhood'. Fotunately for me, I do not feel suicidal, but that very concept of the cult 'sucking the life out of me' is something I am still coming to terms with. I am trying to lead a positive life and yet I still cannot abandon the thought of so many wasted years, so many lost opportunities due to my stupidity in falling for the deceit and lies propagated by m and his cronies. And it leaves a bad taste.

The SCs and CWs of the premie world make absolutely no impression upon me: they are so transparent as to be utterly insignificant to me. Lovejoy is something else - in the guise of intelligent reasoner, he is a cold and calculating plant, and I for one am quite happy that he is not to continue to post here. His post embodies the arrogant cynicism prevalent in many of the higher echelon of EV, which was one of the catalysts for finally giving me the courage to abandon the cult earlier this year.

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 20:01:59 (EST)
From: JHB
Email: None
To: Nick
Subject: Nick - Please tell us more
Message:

about the premie close to M commiting suicide. Do you have press reports and any other info? When did this happen?

Thanks,

John.

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 04:32:07 (EST)
From: Nick
Email: None
To: JHB
Subject: Re: Nick - Please tell us more
Message:

Hi John

I have kept a folder of press reports/articles going back to 1972, although I gave up collecting a few years ago. I also have a big pile of premie publications going back to 1971 and a number of cassette tapes of m at conferences in the 70s.

However, I don't have a clipping of this particular tragedy. I think that it was in 1975 or 1974. The National Co-ordinator in question was the late Nick Seymour-Jones. The story, as it was reported, was that the woman in question had been doing a lot of service at the London residence (in Highgate, I think) and had had a lot of contact with m. As I said in the 1st e-mail, she became very disillusioned with m, left the cult and went back to live with her parents and soon after committed suicide. Her parents were quoted extensively in the national press. No specific circumstances (e.g. personal scandals with m) were reported to my memory. It was all quite vague and it was clear that something had happened, but the 'feet of clay' phrase was repeatedly used.

From what I later picked up, Nick S-J was told to resign his post because of the very bad press that the incident attracted, particularly because no-one from DLM, as it was then, could be bothered to attend the inquest. Hence the uncaring side of the cult was exposed.

I have no more details - all this is relying on my memory of 25+ years ago. The report definitely appeared in the Daily Mail amongst other papers and I think it was over the summer, if anyone wants to search an archive or two.

Which takes me onto another related story. 3 or 4 years ago, Ross Sutton who was i/c international pr, related how a premie journalist from a European country (forget which) had managed to completely wipe all references to and records of m from that country's press association's archives. Again, wish I could remember more details, but that is the type of people and organisation we have left - as per David Lovejoy, fight dirty for the Lord.

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 10:58:38 (EST)
From: Suedoula
Email: None
To: SC
Subject: Re: David Lovejoy's Statement
Message:

Amazing! If you don't have anything real to say, dazzle 'em with smoke and mirrors. Whoever you are, you have managed to avoid the real issues, then if that weren't enough, deflect attention away from them, and if that doesn't work, let's shoot the messenger.

To me, the whole thing boils down to what M is selling and what have you bought. You don't even deny the fact that M came to the West selling himself as 'Perfect Master' and touting his own godhood.

What I see as the problem here is not that he ever expressed it, or even that any of us believed it, but that he could then flat out deny it. It's like Oliver North admitting that he lied to Congress. Of course he is a liar; he admitted it. Don't you believe him? Which of M's lies do you want us to embrace? That he is or that he isn't?

You want to distill this all down to whether or not M is human and then justify his abhorrent behavior based on that. How foolish do you think we all are? You can't even deny the accusations against him, but feel that since he hasn't personally caused you any harm, then his behavior is acceptable and justifiable. How sad for you. With all that has been revealed about M's behavior over these many years, you would have us accept his 'Do as I say, not as I do.' and just move on.

Your analogy of M and other world religions doesn't do it for me either. From my understanding of the world's religions, their Masters practiced what they preached. (OK, I know that each one of them threw their devotees a curve now and then, just to make sure they were paying attention.) Can you say the same of M? Or will you mask that with yet another 'Do as I say, not as I do?' Yes, and as another great pundit once said, 'Don't Worry, Be Happy.' Hey, I can throw out platitudes with the best of them ;-)

I do agree with you on one thing. M is not a 'simple' con artist. He may be a con artist, but the web of deceit and lies woven around him is anything but simple.

You accused John of simply having a personal issue with M. If that is the case, then it is a personal issue for all of us. I felt for the longest time that I was lucky to have simply moved on with my life, but I see now there was more to it. It is personal.

Best to all,
Susan

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 10:40:38 (EST)
From: Patrick Wilson
Email: patrick@patrickwilson.com
To: SC
Subject: Re: David Lovejoy's Statement
Message:

Subject: David Lovejoy's Statement
Message:

David asked me to post this...

I suppose David Lovejoy cannot stoop to submit his own post here, which of course would be the easiest thing in the world to do. One cannot but be impressed at his pomposity - getting you to do his dirty work.

My name is David Lovejoy, and I live in the same part of Australia as John Macgregor and Michael McDonald whose postings are, I understand, a prominent part of this website. In fact I am the managing editor of the newspaper for which Michael works and to which John contributes. You could say that I know them better than most people do.

I wonder if John and Michael would agree!

Stripped down to the core, John's case seems to be that Maharaji is human and Elan Vital is not a democracy. Neither of these insights strikes me as revolutionary. But Michael agrees, and for good measure throws in his belief that 'brain science' may disprove mysticism.

So it’s not a democracy. But I don’t think that anyone here’s departure with M simply stems from being offended by the lack of democracy. Nobody minds a good leader – in fact they are welcomed even in a democracy. What is the issue here is how capable a boss Maharaji is.

Maharaji's organisation appears to be in a phase of change again. It has been doing that on and off for 30 years and I don't expect it to stop. It remains, and I am sure will remain, a profoundly undemocratic institution. Why should it be anything else?

I can think of many reasons why undemocratic institutions suck. The main reason is that the inevitable fat cats at the top either are corrupt, or become corrupted by their power and abuse their shareholders trust. This ‘Perfect Master’ thing is, historically in India, an undemocratic institution that took advantage of a culture that expected and tolerated all kinds of suspect God-men lording it over them. Maharaji came to the west and tried to perpetuate such a system, albeit toning it down a bit. He has however been very suspicious and reluctant to encourage the constructive criticisms of his members despite having made mistakes at their expense.

Where we have no choice about belonging there we have a right to reform.

What about workers rights? As far as I’m concerned, everyone has a ‘right’ to try to reform any situation they find themselves in. Whether they are correct to do so and can be successful is another thing.

At this stage of western history it is unthinkable that we should be born into or forced into an authoritarian political system, and we would resist it mightily.

The word ‘authoritarian’ means that authority prevails over liberty. Our political systems are by no means lacking in authoritative persons. My point is that there is a distinction between benign authority and corrupt authority. We need authorities in all areas of society but we have learned that they should be elected for their merits and abilities and furthermore, that society must have watchdogs to make sure that they are doing their job properly.

But how does that have anything to do with an organisation which we freely choose to join?

Yes, at first we freely , believed in and supported Maharaji’s organisation. We were his organisation - his “hands and feet”. We built him up to being what he is today. He could not have done this without us. We helped him become successful. However, although we initially chose to ‘join’ we probably did not at first realise the full degree to which we would gradually be encouraged to give up our choices, in the process of surrender that seemed to become an increasing requirement. Some of us surrendered our liberties to him in very practical ways - in trust – we surrendered our lives as best we could, our doubts – we worked for him – we gave him our time and money. Our freedom of choice was eroded really over time, by the rhetoric of ‘surrender’ and ‘total dependence’ etc. that Maharaji was responsible for and that we accepted. It’s called brainwashing!

No, I feel we have a right to question the way that we allowed ourselves to be manipulated and indeed, weigh up the benefits that we gained in our lives from following Maharaji’s ‘Agya’ against the costs of being a part of a pretty dysfunctional organisation. Many look back with some regret and, not surprisingly, some resentment that Maharaji himself seems to have been the main benefactor of our sacrifices and trust.

His organisation is de facto his organisation, and anything less democratic than a spiritual teacher's following is hard to imagine. Business isn't democratic, sport isn't democratic, religion isn't democratic. Democracy is about power and how to share it; it has absolutely nothing to do with Maharaji's work, which we recognise as his work not ours.

Well, I think his work would benefit from a little more democracy. Are you suggesting that these undemocratic businesses, religions, sports etc. are shining examples of how the human race conducts its affairs? You can’t be much of an idealist David.

Are we all going to teach the techniques of Knowledge or is it Maharaji's gig?

Why not? Why should the sale of water be monopolised by one company?

Well, I think the point is that Maharaji stands accused of possibly being a bit of a ‘quack’ shall we say. As such I think it may not be inappropriate for anyone who is inspired, to also distribute this ‘medicine’ in their own way. For a start, it is arguable that he misleadingly sells the Knowledge experience as if he were the sole agent. It may not have yet been done, but that does not mean that it is not possible that Knowledge could be taught – distributed – in a manner that does not exalt one person as the only Master of the subject. After all – the experience of our breath is supposedly our birthright and we are invited to learn about it. When we have learned can we not teach others ourselves? Just because we like to believe he is the only source – or the best source - does not mean that it is true. Like Pat said, it is more or less a shrewd business move for Gurus to keep their ‘revelations’ as trade secrets.

Maharaji somehow has managed to get us to associate - to attribute to him – the good experiences we had through learning how to meditate in a certain way. That this grew to become a more complicated belief system seems to me to be mainly because of his constant insistence that we would continue to need him as a source of inspiration (and the fact that the techniques were withheld until one kind of had proved some seeds of loyalty, expectation and dependence) rather than from any inherent conclusions that one might have drawn simply from meditating.

I suppose that I am saying that I question that my inner peace through this particular meditation has anything more to do with him than he happened to be the person selling it. In many ways I have been very grateful for, and enjoyed being a premie, but I remain unconvinced that in the grand scheme of things, he is as indispensable as many, including himself, believe.

I freely acknowledge Maharaji as the font and origin of the organisation, and in organisational terms that means I am not interested in taking part. I wish him well, and I wish the spread of Knowledge well, I will even help in small ways if they present themselves, but working in an undemocratic organisation is not for me: it throws up too many ethical problems. Unless, of course, I am the undemocratic head myself.

It strikes me as a little odd that you can find enough ethical objection to M’s organisation to not want to take part any more – to withdraw – and yet you seem to happily condone him on the other hand. Have you really thought about this deeply I wonder? I personally found that the ‘political’ and unethical stuff had its roots in Maharaji’s whole viewpoint. Certainly these problems largely arose in the first place because of the autocratic dynamic.

. (Is there a 'party line' to proclaim that EV is democratic?)

No, but there are democratic elements permitted within the structure as long as they don’t get too carried away. For example they have meetings about meetings which appear to give people the opportunity to have a say. Of course they don’t really! They just serve to give the impression to people that their views count. Sort of to defuse potential dissent!

There have in fact been two major bad incidents to my knowledge, about which any group should feel ashamed. One is the Jagdeo matter and the other is Fakiranand's violence in 1973. In the time span and magnitude of the organisation I would say that is not a bad batting average for behaviour. I thought Jagdeo was banished, I know Fakiranand was.

The bad incidents, the hypocrisies, the unethical stuff did, and does need to be looked at. The fact that it is being ‘exposed’ in the ways that it has been, by a former high profile premies blurting out secrets that they were too afraid to speak of etc. is, in my view, symptomatic of the disease that existed in M’s organisation. The fact that he personally was not wise enough to address certain skeletons in the cupboard before they became embarrassments or upset people surely represents a lack of judgement on his part.

These unattended boils have to erupt somewhere.

Your list of major bad incidents is too brief and also does not really take in to account the sum of the many minor incidents and of course, the behaviours of Maharaji himself which appear, from Dettmer’s reports to have been, on occasion, both unethical and hypocritical.

and if you have had experience of real cult pressure, as John has, it is hard to see much to criticise in EV programs

Oh but he does! I think the point is that all criticism has its place and is essentially a good thing. My perspective is that the historical context about Maharaji and Knowledge – warts and all - is as relevant a part of the true story as the glossy adverts – and as such - if it is not learned of during the sales pitch (as one would not expect it to be), then it is good that interested people are elsewhere informed so they can make their own minds up.

Although John's posting is clearly sincere, it is relevant to consider his recent experience with 'spiritual' organisations. ……..However, Alice remained resolutely deaf to pleas that she should leave the group. Her answer, when pressed, was 'Why should I do so when you still belong to the Maharaji cult?' Well, now Alice has one less reason to ignore her father's advice. I hope at least that part of the plan is successful.

John’s realisations about the cult his daughter joined and her retort to him about his own persuasions, may well have confronted him with his own hypocrisy. In my opinion that has to have been a favourable outcome. If anything, I would applaud him for seizing the opportunity to do a reality check on his own beliefs. I don’t think your reporting on these circumstances in any way diminishes his postings. If anything it makes me understand him a little better. I would however have thought that you are yourself guilty of having some personal reasons for speaking about Johns private life here. That is the impression you give.

I think the organisation is bad in John's eyes because Maharaji is bad. He says it bears rotten fruit and alleges a 'lack of progress - both internal and external - in the lives of most premies', and the failure of 99% of their marriages (these statements are presumably examples of his factual and unembellished research). All this personal failure is Maharaji's fault.

Maharaji was a big influence on people’s lives and was partly responsible for people changing their directions –giving up careers etc. – can’t they have their regrets? Should they just blame themselves? Can’t he share a little? Oh, I forgot – He is beyond responsibility or blame even though he is human and makes mistakes. Make your mind up premies –is he human or not?? Human’s can take a little blame when it is due.

In the beginning, at the age of thirteen and fourteen, he said many things which were interpreted differently here than they would have been in his native land.

Yes, from what I can see the Indian’s don’t take their God’s quite so seriously. I say this having observed the incredible hypocrisies of mahatmas who, whilst preaching celibacy etc. to us terrible earnest, educated young westerners, were gaily getting stoned and bonking away without the least flicker of conscience. Frankly I am astonished at how, what appears to me to be a perfectly clear philosophy (read Shri Hans’ Yog prakash – early satsangs etc.) is supposedly ‘open to interpretation’. Everything he said was really perfectly self-explanatory. I mean either he is or isn’t God – either there are 43,000,012 lower life-forms or there aren’t.

It seems to me to be conspicuously more the case that Maharaji simply learned that ‘authoritatively’ saying certain things (like that statement that there are so many thousand, million life-forms of lower species that await you in your next incarnation if you don’t practice Knowledge etc) simply didn’t wash with more intelligent people so best to drop it for that audience. What is revealing is that these Gurus only dropped the scary rhetoric when they had to – not because it was wrong- and still would trott it out to those who could be successfully intimidated by such nonsense.

He gradually learned to speak more appropriately to our culture and we learned not to take all that Hindu stuff literally.

But did he? I think not.

No, not all of us did; for some people those beliefs are central and they hang on to them as long as possible, even into the premie afterlife it seems. The obsession with what he said in 1973 is a hangover from the time when we projected omniscience on to him. This sort of nonsense was encouraged by Indians who didn't understand how our minds were conceptually unprotected. Like most people I figured that one out in the mid seventies, but John appears to be still dragging it around. Napoleon indeed!

Listen David, I spent yesterday with a premie friend who was just in India this year – he showed me photos of the huge, elaborate ‘Darshan’ hall that has been recently erected at the ashram there and left me in no doubt that Maharaji certainly still very much approves of people taking all this Hindu stuff extremely literally. I really think that, despite what you say about us learning not to take that Hindu stuff literally, that underneath, Maharaji still really does believe it and endorse it whenever he can. It strikes me that it is merely regrettable to him –inconvenient - that westerners seem to find this deification and all the trappings unacceptable and offensive. I really see a lot of hypocrisy in this area. I think he loves the worship. I mean – he still has an instrumental Arti playing at programs apparently. The implication is there. The old premies will be singing the words in their heads - He still plays to that old premie ‘projected omniscience’ – He really does! He does absolutely nothing to discourage it and a good deal, sneakily, to encourage it actually. Don’t blame the premies! A lot of westerners are confused about this –and rightly so. Also just because worshipping a man-god is traditional and acceptable in Indian culture doesn’t mean that it is not a vestige of outdated magical superstition which has little basis in Truth and a dubious place in man’s future.

Then there's his personal life. As far as I can understand, the criticism here is that he eats and smokes and screws. If he were a Jerry Falwell-style evangelist inveighing against the sins of the flesh we could dob him in for hypocrisy, but I've never heard him advising us to do anything but practise Knowledge
.
Where were you David? What about the ashram lifestyle that he advocated for his most sincere followers in the 70’s? I have personally heard during ashram meetings, Maharaji rail against premies who were tempted by the sins of the flesh. Maybe not now –of course not – but in the past yes – and that was apparently when he was indulging himself liberally in these things! It’s a bit rich.

What is the accusation? That he is human? That after 27 years his marriage is not going too well? Or simply that these matters are not broadcast via cable or discussed at length in EV newsletters as John apparently thinks they should be.

The accusations are that Maharaji, whilst doing the Master bit very nicely for others, seems to rather have neglected to take himself, the medicine he prescribes for others. The cynical suggestions are that Knowledge is a business for him and that he shows all the signs of one who is corrupt / drunk with power. There seems to be some evidence to support this although, since Maharaji is well protected and is surrounded by much secrecy, one has to make up one’s own mind as to the veracity of the bitter ravings of some prominent apostates. Being myself, quite confused by the reports of one Michael Dettmers, I indeed took it upon myself to track him down and satisfy myself at length that he was not making it all up out of spite!

In fact, despite John's self-aggrandisement on the net posting, I don't really think he had much personal contact with him at all. I had precious little, but it is enough to keep me from indulging in superficial nitpicking about his character. Whoever Maharaji is, he is not a simple con artist.

I don’t think that is the suggestion of the former premies who are now fallen from Grace. I think even they recognise that he is a more complex character. Multi-faceted?

To my eye neither Michael nor John has been damaged in any way by the time they chose to give this path. In fact, I am in a position to recall that they were both in desperate straits when they came to Maharaji, and that the quality of both their lives rose tremendously. I witnessed it, and it was no different in my own case.

Can you not permit them to speak for themselves? If they feel that they were damaged then presumably that’s what they feel. You flatter yourself that you are seeking to put into perspective their criticisms but you seem to be at pains to diminish what they feel now – whatever their reasons.

the end of his path with Maharaji is a personal matter and in my opinion has no public resonance. There may be a great debate going on at the ex-premie website but there is not in the community here in Byron Shire.

That’s right. The debate is here - not in your community. So? Why should the debate be in private –not in public? You are not clear about this. What should be hidden?

the obsessive detail in which John reveals his own identity is like some kind of electronic striptease and sounds, frankly, like someone on the verge of a nervous breakdown.

So let him have his breakdown – these ex-premie websites (especially the private ‘recent-exes forum’) are designed as places for recovery and support for exactly these sort of people. You obviously have taken great exception to John’s views. It sounds as if you have no sympathy for his personal struggle. I remember that in premiedom, the personal struggles of individuals were often met with coldness and lack of empathy because of the overriding belief that premies had – confused people were simply ‘In their Mind’ and everyone had to deal with that themselves through their private efforts and of course Maharaji’s Grace.

Writing stuff for the internet is (as I have found by writing this) a strange experience. You feel anonymous even if you are putting your own name to the message. There is a temptation to exaggerate, to make the story sound better.

Speak for yourself. Personally, the responsibility of broadcasting my feelings and experiences publicly, weighs upon me to be as accurate, conscientious and honest as possible.

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 14:14:05 (EST)
From: Pat:C)
Email: None
To: Patrick Wilson
Subject: You're a saint, Patrcik W
Message:

I thought of doing a point by point refutation but lost interest. Thank you for your time, effort and saintly patience for doing that. I feel very lucky to be in the same good company as you and the other fine people who have posted in this thread.

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 10:25:56 (EST)
From: Michael Dettmers
Email: dettmers@gylanix.com
To: SC
Subject: Re: David Lovejoy's Statement
Message:

Hello David,

It must be 20 years or more since our paths last crossed. I do remember you and your family and trust that you are all well. I also remember that you were quite a chess master. I certainly have no personal axe to grind with you, but I do not agree with some of the arguments you have put forth in your post. I will not reiterate many of your points that have already been rebutted so far. Instead, I want to focus on your argument that Maharaji is not a democratic leader nor is Élan Vital a democratic organization. Of course they are not.

I also agree with you that most businesses and organizations are not run democratically. Unlike Afghanistan, however, businesses and organizations that function within the umbrella of democratic societies have a legal responsibility to operate within the rules of law that are intended to protect and advance the public good. Now, we all know that no society is perfect in this regard, and there is legitimate and ongoing debate about what constitutes the public good. But that goes to the very heart of what a democracy is all about. One of the great things about living in the USA and other democracies vs. Afghanistan is that there is freedom of speech and freedom of information.

As a masterful chess player, you will appreciate that Maharaji, in my opinion, blinded by his need to hold onto absolute power, and exacerbated by his alcoholism, has made a strategic mistake by failing to grasp the nature of the democracies in which he has chosen to live and operate. With the advent of the internet and other communications technologies, organizations, however undemocratic, have less and less power to control the information they do not want disseminated to the public. Consequently, honesty, integrity, and open dialogue are the only viable courses of action. Maharaji and Élan Vital have failed to learn that lesson, with the result that their lies, spin-doctoring, and inexcusable handling of the Jagdeo matter are being exposed for what they are.

Surely you can’t be serious when you suggest that people should distinguish between Maharaji’s personal live and his mission. How can a Perfect Master’s, or spiritual teacher’s (or whatever Maharaji calls himself theses days) mission be viewed separately and distinctly from the life he lives. And, if that life is characterized by a long-standing pattern of abusing alcohol, women, money, and (indirectly) innocent children (by failing to act in the Jagdeo matter once he became aware of the abuse), most people who know the facts will think twice before becoming involved with such a person and his organization. That is why his mission is grinding to a halt and why long-standing members are leaving in droves.

Michael

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 10:21:44 (EST)
From: Katie
Email: None
To: SC
Subject: Response to David Lovejoy's Statement
Message:

I see two different parts in this statement - first, a summation of Mr. Lovejoy's feelings about Maharaji and Elan Vital; and second, an attempt to discredit what John McGregor and Michael McDonald have said while attacking them personally.

Although Mr. Lovejoy is entitled to express his own opinion re Maharaji, Elan Vital, and the political situation in the world (I am sure he knows that that what he says on these topics will meet with disagreement here), I find his personal statements about John McGregor and Michael McDonald particularly distasteful - especially if, as he claims, he knows them well and even acts as their employer on occassion.

I found the way that Mr. Lovejoy 'incidentally' revealed many things about John's personal and professional life to be quite distasteful. It seems to be a common strategy among certain premies these days to attack people's credibility by attacking them personally - perhaps implying that they are mentally imbalanced. Evidence of this has been seen in EV's press releases about the Jagdeo victims, in which Abi was smeared in this way; the CAC and Halt Hate sites; and past posts on this forum.

Mr. Lovejoy wrote:
I can understand a feeling of 'it's over, I'm moving on'. If a personal road comes to an end there's no sense denying it. But these are statements of people who have come to that impasse and believe that the end of their own chapter should be made the end of everyone else's. A personal turning point does not have to be conflated into a general crusade.

I don't believe that a 'general crusade' was either John or Michael's purpose in posting their statements. Despite what Mr. Lovejoy seems to think, some people are not able to sit down and shut up when they decide to leave Maharaji's organization. I believe that it is important for people to write about their own personal end of the road with Maharaji - important both for them, and for others. In fact, the Journeys section of ex-premie.org has been very helpful to OTHER people who may be experiencing similar things, despite Mr. Lovejoy's opinion that these stories have no 'public resonance'. Of course, no one's experience is the same, but neither John or Michael implied that.

Finally, Mr Lovejoy writes:
Finally, the obsessive detail in which John reveals his own identity is like some kind of electronic striptease and sounds, frankly, like someone on the verge of a nervous breakdown.

Perhaps Mr. Lovejoy is not aware of the fact that, recently, some people associated with Maharaji have taken it upon themselves to obsessively search for personal details about certain ex-premies and publish these on the internet. John's so-called electronic striptease list was, in my opinion, an attempt to pre-empt these list of personal details. And, if Mr. Lovejoy REALLY thinks this kind of obsessive listing of personal information is unseemly, I find it very strange that he has taken it upon himself to add still MORE details about John's personal life - particularly about his family.

Mr. Lovejoy's statement, although well-written, appears to me to be meant mainly as a personal attack, and an attempt to discredit both John McGregor and Michael McDonald. I find it curious that he would apparently spend so much time writing something like this despite the fact that, in his own words, There may be a great debate going on at the ex-premie website but there is not in the community here in Byron Shire. What's the point of this post then?

Sincerely,
Katie

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 08:47:18 (EST)
From: bill
Email: None
To: SC
Subject: David WILL be reading responses I am sure [nt]
Message:

[nt]

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 07:41:26 (EST)
From: AJW
Email: None
To: SC
Subject: I am not worthy.
Message:

Nobody asked me to post this...
To David Lovejoy,

What a surprise to see your post on the forum David. (Don’t you know how to use a computer yet? You could easily have posted it yourself.) My first thought was, “Glen has been on the phone to him.” Was I right?

Anyway, I hope you and Hans are well. I think the last time I saw you was at one our wedding anniversaries. I tried to work out how long ago that was, and got to twelve years ago, and thought, shit, it can’t be as long as that. I was surprised to read your defence of Captain Rawat, as I’d always considered you an Ex-premie. Remember at the party, about 2 am, I got a phone call inviting all the party guests to go down to Reigate and be unpaid servants at Rawat’s tea party the next day. You were the only party guest who turned the invitation down. (A wise decision as it turned out. The party was absolutely terrible. It degenerated into a flock of premies following him around. I was left sitting on my own, at a table for 80, in the middle of his lawn. Eventually I joined the rest of the herd round the corner, listening to Rawat giving a pitch on how much he needed this new jet, and it only cost Xmillion dollars.)

I digress.

Anyway, let’s have a look at your post. First I had to scrape out the personal stuff between you, John and Michael. You’ve obviously got some history between you. But surely you know how tawdry this type of thing looks out in the open. You sound like someone with an axe to grind. So, after picking out the bones, gripes and gristle, what’s left? All I see is very old, solidified gravy, that’s been hanging around for years. It’s not really been doing much harm, stuck there in the back of your head, but you haven’t really sorted out your feelings about your old Master, his teaching, and his discredited church. The reason they’ve been festering there in the back of your mind for all these years, is because I don’t think they’ve been challenged. (Your comment, via SC, about not posting makes me suspect you don’t want them challenging either.)

Anyway, I’m going to challenge them. You’ve seen through the organisation, which you left, but I don’t think you’ve seen through the paper concepts from the 60s, that still litter your mind. This leaves you as an apologist for a religious cult that is no different from the Moonies, Hare Krishnas, Children of God, etc, but I’ll get on to your defence, and spin on the cult later. First let’s examine those crusty old Hindu concepts.

You talk about “Knowledge”, as if it was an experience of “God within” or something. As if those patterns you see when you press you eyeballs are “Divine Light”, as if divine ambrosia tastes suspicously of snot, as if blood running over your eardrums is “divine harmony”. As if, when you talk about “God”, you can just as easily use the word “Knowledge”, because they are in essence, from a human perspective, the same thing. And the only way we can know that mystery, is to experience it within right? And the only way to do that, (that we know of) is through “Knowledge”. So it all ends up being the same thing. God, spirit, light, infinity, soul, truth, harmony, peace- all this is “Knowledge”.

Sorry to have to be the one to break the news David, but this is total bullshit. “Knowledge” is not “God Within.” It’s just four old indian yoga techniques. If you stop believing, and then press you eyeballs, you still seem the same pretty patterns. “Knowledge” is part of the cult belief system. Try and talk to someone who hasn’t been in the cult about it, then watch them run.

You also seem to be carrying some weird stuff around in your head about the Captain. Particulary when you distill the main criticism of him down to the fact that he’s human. Can’t you see how ridiculous it is to say this David? Don’t you understand that the only people in the world who have any doubt that the Captain is indeed 100% human, stupid and fallible, are premies. He’s criticised for his dishonesty, greed, revisionism, lies, abuse, and for leading thousands of folk up the garden path with his claims that he was “Perfect Master, here with more power than ever before to establish Peace on Earth” You remember surely. How he used to get himself crowned as Krishna (probably still does in private, and in India). He’s also criticise for protecting Jagdeo for years, allowing him to live a life as the travelling cult pedophile. He’s criticised for refusing to answer his critics. He’s criticised for drunken driving, leaving the scene of an accident after killing someone, sexually abusing his female devotees, and all the time, carrying on playing his delusional role as “Living Perfect Master”.

I suspect you still buy into this shit David, and believe he’s a “Master” with some special power and status that us ordinary folk don'’ have. Maybe you still believe in the “Perfect Master” bullshit, he’s latest in a line including Jesus, Buddha, Nanak, etc, who all taught the same “Knowledge of God.” Do me a favour mate.

Your other interpretation of the criticism is that folk are angry because the cult “is not a democratic organisation”. This isn’t the main criticism of the cult. That’s like saying, one of the biggest criticisms of the Nazis is that they weren’t democratic. Most organisations aren’t democratic. Most employers aren’t. But when people work together, taking account of each other’s needs, with a sense of the common good, this isn’t usually a problem. In fact democracising many institutions and processes can cause bedlam. This is not the main criticism of the cult David. Maybe you should read some of the posts on Ex-premie.org.

Your statement about us joining the cult “of our own free will” are also quite contentious. I sat through hours of programming, night after night, telling me “Knowledge was God within,” and “Maharaji was God in Human form, nay greater than God.” The Mahatmas didn’t even initiate anyone until they believed that crap. I’ve written about this process in more detail, and put a link at the top of the page.

You mention two “incidents”, one of which is the “Jagdeo incident”. It wasn’t an incident David. It was lots and lots of “incidents”, that went of for years. Rawat and the cult knew, and did nothing. Calling it an “incident” makes it sound like it only happened once. It happened dozens ot times.

It’s strange how you interpret John and Michael’s criticism, and then demolish and lampoon your own interpretation. Why don’t you debate these issues head on with people David? Your attitude is a bit like that of the cult, when it published it’s hilarious FAQs. Pia’s site was similar. It criticised, “lies and innaccuracies” but never, ever, said what one of the lies was. Is it that us poor old ex-premies are somehow, “unworthy of engaging discussion”.

Or maybe, underneath it, you know you arguments and beliefs cannot survive in the light of day.

You ended your post, musing on the strange experience of writing stuff on the internet, saying people who know you can judge whether you’re bullshitting. Well, I guess posting on the internet is a bit of a weird experience if you have to get someone else to do it for you. And don’t worry about people not knowing you David. Your words speak for themselves, and I’m afraid they give the message that you haven’t sorted your ideas about Rawat, his cult and his “Divine Experience within” out yet.

Maybe that’s why rather than talk to us, you’ve “issued a statement”, via your servant SC.

Perhaps when things are a little clearer for you, you’ll come and talk.

Your old pal Anth.

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 07:57:55 (EST)
From: AJW
Email: None
To: AJW
Subject: Hey David Roupell.
Message:

Hi SC,

Nobody asked me to post this...

Why can't David post his own stuff? Doesn't he have a computer? Does he know how to use one? Are you his unpaid servant?

Or is he worried something terrible might happen if he logs on the where the Ex-premies hang out?

Shit David, it ain't so bad out here is it? Tell him we don't bite, we just like to discuss things in a healthy, democratic atmosphere of free expression.

Anth, wish I had a servant to do my typing too.

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 21:23:41 (EST)
From: gerry
Email: None
To: AJW
Subject: David Roupell irons Lovejoy's shirts, too... [nt]
Message:

[nt]

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 07:24:22 (EST)
From: AJW
Email: None
To: gerry
Subject: Has he got a moustache...
Message:

...and clean fingernails?

Anth, friend and husband of Dorothy.

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 05:27:08 (EST)
From: Zelda
Email: None
To: SC
Subject: David Lovejoy shows his colors
Message:

with one sentence:
'What terrible thing did he do to either John or Michael?

How he can talk of the treatment of refugees in one breath and in the next breath completely bypass the fact that John and Michael may have formed judgement of Marajis treatment of people OTHER THAN THEMSELVES.
This self-interest mindset is one of the significant symptoms of brainwashing.

Also he says:
'To my eye neither Michael nor John has been damaged in any way by the time they chose to give this path. In fact, I am in a position to recall that they were both in desperate straits when they came to Maharaji, and that the quality of both their lives rose tremendously. I witnessed it, and it was no different in my own case.'
This shows he has completely lost his capacity to be objective, has only superficial insight and takes us all for materialistic robots.

This is the kind of post that is valuable. I hope some fenceliners read it very carefully and see WHAT IT DOESNT SAY.

Z

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 04:54:33 (EST)
From: Pat:C)
Email: None
To: SC
Subject: ***BEST OF FORM***, David Roupell
Message:

That certainly is the best piece of cult apologism I've ever read.

It's also the most substantive message you've ever posted, David. Pity it isn't yours but David Lovejoy's.

It really is quite an accomplished exercise in rationalization and would almost make a good sermon except for the occassional lapses such as Lovejoy's underhanded, sly and spiteful suggestion that Mc Gregor is showing signs of a nervous breakdown.

But that of course is a typical cultist groupthink tactic. Glasser, CAC, you and CW have accused many of us of worse. It must break your heart that we haven't turned into rotting vegetables. So, some exes have nervous problems but actually the ratio compared with that of the premies that I know is about the same.

Also exes are a lot more honest about their problems as they don't have to constantly pretend to be happy like PWKs.It sometimes seems as if CAC and the cult cyberstalkers who post here are trying their damnedest to make sure the rotting veg curse comes true.

Anyway back to Lovejoy's letter: Let's assume for one minute that I agree with premies about Knowledge and that is that doing the techs makes you feel fine, more relaxed and calm and that when you're relaxed and feeling calm and fine, it is easier to stop and smell the roses, to enjoy life a more, to savor the breath, to live life to the fullest.

Of course it's a damned shame that almost half the premies that I have known in my life don't experience that life is great. Oh, some may pretend but quite a few don't succeed and are miserable. Why? Because Knowledge is your own effort. If you want to be happy you could be happy simply by pulling your earlobe three times a day or whenever you felt that you were losing your joy.

It's simply a matter of mindfulness, paying attention. Bhakti yoga is for Indian peasants who have no beauty in their lives and are pitifully poor and downtrodden. Oh sure the Radhasoami cults (from which Shri Hans got his juju) took it to the vaisya castes but even middle-class merchants lead dreary lives. There is no excuse for westerners to need a ''master'' to sharpen their attention which is what bhakti is for.

But most premies think that K is some sort of magic bullet that will kill their suffering. Why do they think that - especially the long-term premies not the K-lite guys? They think that because they were told that Knowledge was god (later revised to ''the closest thing to immortality'' or some such mealy-mouthed platitude.) And most old-time premies believe that Rev Rawat owns this magic bullet.

Thoroughly modernized de-Hinduized PWKs may not say ''Guru is greater than god because he reveals god'' anymore but deep down inside that is the operating system that powers all the new updated ''evolved'' cult software er cult concepts. The de-Hinduized concept may be expressed by saying such cool stuff as ''K is M's gig and it isn't democratic.''

Damn right it isn't democratic. Like many premies, I had studied Hinduism before meeting Rawat so I did not see him as the messiah and actually had to hype myself up to ''feel'' what the other premies were feeling. Sure I felt all the same hope and joy and faith and energy that we all did in the beginning. That all went out of the window when Rawat stopped satsang which he did because selling god is a good business.

If satsang had continued it would have evolved into something like this forum. Some people would have gotten something from the techs, some may have joined ear-lobe pulling cults and some may have not believed in god at all and subscribed to the temporal-lobe-stimulation entheogenic theory.

I continued practicing K and enjoying it and wanted to tell people about it but could not. Why? Because I could no longer speak for myself from my own heart but had to be programmed by a cult to speak like a clone of Rawat. Of course the other big taboo was that the techs were meant to be secret. Well, of course all trade secrets are secret. Duh!

The techs are old and respected and, without all the primitive feudalistic religious superstitious guru-juju mumbo-jumbo, can be quite good for mental health and stress reduction which is what they were developed for. But they are not THE secret. The real secret of the cult is guru-worship, bhakti yoga.

Rawat could avoid most of the criticism directed at him if he simply came straight out and said that he runs a personality-worship cult which he hints at will deliver the ultimate knowledge which of course cannot be described but is the closest to god you will ever be. Actually he has recently amended that to the ''possibility of knowledge.'' If he keeps on watering it down anymore he may as well just say give me your money and worship me and I'll give your a bigger thrill than your wife - maybe.

You are right, Mr Lovejoy, Rawat's gig is not democratic not even for people who have practiced the yoga for 30 years, not even if they have ''evolved'' as he has. You made the mistake of comparing it to a business and saying that businesses are not democratic. You are quite right. I agree with you that it is not a cult. It is a business but it really is guilty of false advertising and that's where democracy kicks in.

Business definitely has to operate within the bounds of democracy and the last time I checked Rawat was still a US citizen enjoying all the benefits of democracy. The cult er business may get away with not tolerating democracy within it's staff but it is still accountable to the democracy of the society in which it operates especially to the consumers of their product. I'm saying that the product is being sold under false pretenses and is not what it is being advertised as and that the product is basically free anyway and therefore you are simply paying for the packaging. Maybe Rawat should start selling bottled tap water. He's a conman plain and simple.

My minute of agreeing with you that K makes you feel great is nearly up so I had better say this quickly. Sure Rawat had a good gig in the beginning. He brought a lot of joy to a lot of people. But he really did not evolve truthfully, democratically and openly. Instead he stopped satsang and ran it undemocratically like a cult er I mean business. He made his first big mistake nearly 20 years ago and his gig has no longer been relevant in the west since then. It's a scam.

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 21:31:42 (EST)
From: gerry
Email: None
To: Pat:C)
Subject: ****BEST OF****
Message:

That certainly is the best piece of cult apologism I've ever read.

It's also the most substantive message you've ever posted, David. Pity it isn't yours but David Lovejoy's.

It really is quite an accomplished exercise in rationalization and would almost make a good sermon except for the occassional lapses such as Lovejoy's underhanded, sly and spiteful suggestion that Mc Gregor is showing signs of a nervous breakdown.

But that of course is a typical cultist groupthink tactic. Glasser, CAC, you and CW have accused many of us of worse. It must break your heart that we haven't turned into rotting vegetables. So, some exes have nervous problems but actually the ratio compared with that of the premies that I know is about the same.

Also exes are a lot more honest about their problems as they don't have to constantly pretend to be happy like PWKs.It sometimes seems as if CAC and the cult cyberstalkers who post here are trying their damnedest to make sure the rotting veg curse comes true.

Anyway back to Lovejoy's letter: Let's assume for one minute that I agree with premies about Knowledge and that is that doing the techs makes you feel fine, more relaxed and calm and that when you're relaxed and feeling calm and fine, it is easier to stop and smell the roses, to enjoy life a more, to savor the breath, to live life to the fullest.

Of course it's a damned shame that almost half the premies that I have known in my life don't experience that life is great. Oh, some may pretend but quite a few don't succeed and are miserable. Why? Because Knowledge is your own effort. If you want to be happy you could be happy simply by pulling your earlobe three times a day or whenever you felt that you were losing your joy.

It's simply a matter of mindfulness, paying attention. Bhakti yoga is for Indian peasants who have no beauty in their lives and are pitifully poor and downtrodden. Oh sure the Radhasoami cults (from which Shri Hans got his juju) took it to the vaisya castes but even middle-class merchants lead dreary lives. There is no excuse for westerners to need a ''master'' to sharpen their attention which is what bhakti is for.

But most premies think that K is some sort of magic bullet that will kill their suffering. Why do they think that - especially the long-term premies not the K-lite guys? They think that because they were told that Knowledge was god (later revised to ''the closest thing to immortality'' or some such mealy-mouthed platitude.) And most old-time premies believe that Rev Rawat owns this magic bullet.

Thoroughly modernized de-Hinduized PWKs may not say ''Guru is greater than god because he reveals god'' anymore but deep down inside that is the operating system that powers all the new updated ''evolved'' cult software er cult concepts. The de-Hinduized concept may be expressed by saying such cool stuff as ''K is M's gig and it isn't democratic.''

Damn right it isn't democratic. Like many premies, I had studied Hinduism before meeting Rawat so I did not see him as the messiah and actually had to hype myself up to ''feel'' what the other premies were feeling. Sure I felt all the same hope and joy and faith and energy that we all did in the beginning. That all went out of the window when Rawat stopped satsang which he did because selling god is a good business.

If satsang had continued it would have evolved into something like this forum. Some people would have gotten something from the techs, some may have joined ear-lobe pulling cults and some may have not believed in god at all and subscribed to the temporal-lobe-stimulation entheogenic theory.

I continued practicing K and enjoying it and wanted to tell people about it but could not. Why? Because I could no longer speak for myself from my own heart but had to be programmed by a cult to speak like a clone of Rawat. Of course the other big taboo was that the techs were meant to be secret. Well, of course all trade secrets are secret. Duh!

The techs are old and respected and, without all the primitive feudalistic religious superstitious guru-juju mumbo-jumbo, can be quite good for mental health and stress reduction which is what they were developed for. But they are not THE secret. The real secret of the cult is guru-worship, bhakti yoga.

Rawat could avoid most of the criticism directed at him if he simply came straight out and said that he runs a personality-worship cult which he hints at will deliver the ultimate knowledge which of course cannot be described but is the closest to god you will ever be. Actually he has recently amended that to the ''possibility of knowledge.'' If he keeps on watering it down anymore he may as well just say give me your money and worship me and I'll give your a bigger thrill than your wife - maybe.

You are right, Mr Lovejoy, Rawat's gig is not democratic not even for people who have practiced the yoga for 30 years, not even if they have ''evolved'' as he has. You made the mistake of comparing it to a business and saying that businesses are not democratic. You are quite right. I agree with you that it is not a cult. It is a business but it really is guilty of false advertising and that's where democracy kicks in.

Business definitely has to operate within the bounds of democracy and the last time I checked Rawat was still a US citizen enjoying all the benefits of democracy. The cult er business may get away with not tolerating democracy within it's staff but it is still accountable to the democracy of the society in which it operates especially to the consumers of their product. I'm saying that the product is being sold under false pretenses and is not what it is being advertised as and that the product is basically free anyway and therefore you are simply paying for the packaging. Maybe Rawat should start selling bottled tap water. He's a conman plain and simple.

My minute of agreeing with you that K makes you feel great is nearly up so I had better say this quickly. Sure Rawat had a good gig in the beginning. He brought a lot of joy to a lot of people. But he really did not evolve truthfully, democratically and openly. Instead he stopped satsang and ran it undemocratically like a cult er I mean business. He made his first big mistake nearly 20 years ago and his gig has no longer been relevant in the west since then. It's a scam.


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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 20:38:11 (EST)
From: Brian Smith
Email: None
To: Pat:C)
Subject: errors and ommissions
Message:

How could m expect the stupidity to last forever, he fucked up when he neglected that no one would ever wake up and cry foul.

Why should anyone purchase and repurchase the same free product over and over again for ever as long as they live?

The handful of ancient meditation techniques that m has packaged as the essence of life are akin to the knock-off fake label, rolex's, designer label products that are sold by shady fly by night backalley vendors.

Bottled water drawn from the city tap, good analogy Pat, the outside package might be impressive but the inside product is the same exact thing.

That is if you buy it, if you are wise you will just go to your own tap, and find all that you need flowing freely.

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 04:08:01 (EST)
From: Pat:C)
Email: None
To: Brian Smith
Subject: Most of this thread is great [nt]
Message:

[nt]

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 18:43:23 (EST)
From: JHB
Email: None
To: Pat:C)
Subject: *** NOT BEST OF FORM***, David Roupell
Message:

Not your post Pat, but Lovejoy's. I can't understand why he wrote it. For four or five days it will remain on this forum, and then disappear until I get around to posting the archives on EPO. Even there, few are likely to read it, and those who do will also read the responses, to which Lovejoy has no response.

Macgregor's posts, on the other hand, will remain prominently featured on EPO.

No, for someone who works in the publicity business, Lovejoy understands little of his profession.

John.

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 13:13:39 (EST)
From: Cynthia
Email: None
To: JHB
Subject: ABSOLUTELY *** NOT BEST OF FORM***
Message:

Hello All,

Lovejoy is a cult apologist. The responses are great, but to give him a place in the hall of fame, especially when it was posted by SC? Absolutely now way IMO.

To do so would give all of the cult apologists credibility here, as well as the cult weasels and mindfucked premies who try to defend Maharaji.

I think it would thrill Maharaji, too.

The other piece, as Katie stated, is that Lovejoy has included some personal accusations about John Mc. and his daughter which tactic is way below the belt, and uncalled for.

I just finished the book Raven which was quite a difficult read. I have to say that Marianne has been very accurate and correct in her assessment of the similarities between Jones and Maharaji.

Any Temple member with any position of power and knowledge of Jones's megalomania, sick and perverted behavior, and especially knowledge about the money, which was hidden in bank accounts all over the world, had great fears about leaving the cult. When they did leave, they received threats, were harrassed, their garbage was inspected at night, and were demonized by Jones's and his inner circle.

Those in Maharaji's inner circle have much to fear by leaving M because there is great concern about what will be said about the real Rawat, not the one on the stage. Lovejoy's response to McGregor and MacDonald is simply a backlash, one that really shouldn't be surprising in light of the several attempts by EV/M to expose and harm those ex-premies listed on CAC sites. I am not surprised at all that San Franciso police took statements very seriously. After all, Jones's Peoples Temple had great presence and power in San Franciso in the 70s leading up to his secret mass exodus to Jonestown.

Jones's followers believed he was GOD. They called him ''Father'' or ''Dad.'' Once bad publicity started haunting him he orchestrated the transplant of hundreds of people to Guyana. The Concerned Relatives had a most difficult time getting any attention about their grave concerns about what was happening in the cult, and the well-being of their loved ones. The White Nights were rehearsals for mass suicide (murder) in that remote area. It reminds me of Amaroo. Prior to the mass murders that took place on 11/18/78, Jones knew that Congressman Ryan was coming with a contingency of Concerned Relatives and members of the press. He was reclusive, drugged, and determined not to be exposed. During that short time period in anticipation of that visit/inspection, a container of potassium cyanide was delivered to the camp by the Jonestown boat, Cujo. It is speculated that if even one, just one person decided to leave instead of the several who made that decision, Jones still would have gone through with the White Night murders.

We all know what happened to Jones and the hundreds of people who were with him on November 18, 1978. By reading that book, I have been able to see how similar the MO is with the EV/M cult.

For instance, I've read here a few times that Maharaji gets into a ''reclusive mode.'' What does that mean exactly? Where does Maharaji go to be reclusive? Why does he become reclusive and what is his behavior during this time? Jim Jones also had a pattern of becoming reclusive. He would be taking drugs, drinking excessively, having sex excessively, and was deeply depressed. He wouldn't make any appearances during these reclusive periods, but would make tapes to broadcast over the PA system while his slaves worked. Sometimes he would talk live, rambling on and on nonsensically, continuously telling lies to his already brainwashed congregation.

There were many people in Guyana who wanted desparately to leave. The cult members in the inner circle were drugged when it appeared they wanted out. Anyone who wanted out of the cult had to escape, and not just from Guyana. Those in the U.S. who defected were stalked (this is before the internet)) and they were considered enemies, dead to the rest of the congregation.

My point is that to give any credibility to someone who writes anything on this board in defense of Maharaji is not the way to go. Especially when defectors such as McGregor and MacDonald have come forth at great risk, IMO, to tell the truth.

Cynthia Gracie

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 23:10:28 (EST)
From: Stonor
Email: None
To: Cynthia
Subject: Great post Cynthia!!! and ... (ot)
Message:

Wishing you a belated HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

A while ago you extended an olive branch to me ... if you can find it again I would like to accept it with thanks, and apologies to you. I've been going through some hard times lately myself - it can take some time to work things through.

Love,

Anna

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Date: Tues, Nov 13, 2001 at 10:15:47 (EST)
From: Cynthia
Email: None
To: Stonor
Subject: Hi Stoner.... (ot)
Message:

Olive branch is extended...I was just waiting, Anna...I know that everyone works through stuff in their own time.

Thanks for the birthday wishes, and I hope you're well,

Love,
Cynthia

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Date: Tues, Nov 13, 2001 at 15:29:39 (EST)
From: Stonor
Email: None
To: Cynthia
Subject: Thanks Cynthia! :)
Message:

And that really was quite the post. I remember Marianne and others mentioning the parallels, but your post made them quite (unpleasantly) clear. It must be strange and difficult to look back and see it all in such a different light.

I hope you had a wonderful birthday celebration ... I was a little disappointed that your post-birthday post was hit by a glitch! It's always fun to hear about someone's great time!

All the best to you!

Love,

Anna

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 04:19:32 (EST)
From: peg
Email: None
To: SC
Subject: Re: David Lovejoy's Statement
Message:

So ask your friend why he is 'pissing in the wind over this non-issue' then.

does he think 'this knowledge' will stop the bombing?

peg

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 02:13:59 (EST)
From: RichMandrake
Email: None
To: SC
Subject: David LoveJoy is a Coward and an Apologist..
Message:

Having been a Follower of MahaRawats (Maharaji) from very early 1973 until a Few Months ago.....I am sickened by the heartless and Empty Propaganda that this 'David Lovejoy'(whoever he may really be) puts Out in the above Post. He has not the Courage to Post it himself...and even More Cowardly of Him is the Statement that 'David will not be participating in any forum debate on these issues'

It is abundantly clear to me that the Above post was made with the sole intention of winning points with MahaRawat by trying to somehow counter and discredit (however feebly) John MacGregor's Brutally Honest, Courageous and Insightful Posts.
Whoever David Lovejoy claims to be, his points are vague and twist the truth, thus the fact that he did not post it himself and will not stick around to defend his post is altogether understandable...even predictable.

I dont Know John McGregor, But EVERYTHING he said Rang True and Clear...and He has had the Courage to Post under His Name and stick around to face the certain attacks that Maharaji would of course instruct his followers to undertake. The Above Post allegedly made by 'David Lovejoy' in Absentia is obviously one of those attacks.

If there Is a Real David Lovejoy, Let Him come out of hiding and stick around to defend his Post and Address these Simple Facts about Maharaji:

Maharaji claimed to be the Lord of All Creation and told Thousands of Us (mostly at a time when we were very Young, Idealistic and Vulnerable) that the Sole and Only Valid Purpose of Ours Lives was to Serve, Worship and Obey Him.
Even while he was proclaiming his Divinity at Events attended by his followers , he was denying it at public venues and to the press causing many of us to come to the conclusion that there was a set of truths that we initiates were privy to...and a public posture designed to make it more digestible for people who were not yet ready to accept that He Was God.

In the Early '80s Maharaji closed the Ashrams, throwing many of us out on the Street after we had given Thousands..some Hundreds of Thousands of Dollars to Him and forgone Career Opportunities and Relationships to 'Serve The Lord'. He had earlier told us implicitly (and at Ashram meetings explicitly) that the ONLY option acceptable was to give up all our material possessions (to him) and move into this Monastic Order, the Ashram, demanding Poverty Chastity and Obedience (while MahaRawat, in acts of Stupendous Hypocrisy, was Spending Millions of Dollars made by these Ashram Residents,drinking doing Drugs and later having Multiple Adulterous Affairs).
Many of us were devastated by this. Some recovered to become successful...others never did.

Although MahaRawat Stopped Explicitly at that point making any of the above assertions, he nevertheless refused to explain why He Ever Did make those Assertions. ( I personally asked him at a public program circa 1983 and he was single-pointedly evasive).

He continued to give the 'initiated' hints that he was Still the Lord (Instrumental Versions of Arti, Teach Me Devotion, Darshan, Various quotes). Bob Mischler, MahaRawats first National Coordinator gave a possible explanation for this when he told a radio talk show host that Maharaji had considered 'Coming Clean' with the Fact that he was not the Lord and explaining himself but was concerned that Donations to Him would Drop Precipitously (OF COURSE THEY WOULD!!).

Because of Maharaji's Behaviors and his Silence many of us continued to follow him and believe in His Divinity and continued to follow him and give him money because of that belief. I myself still believed he was 'the Lord' because he had said that he was MANY times.(On this point I will be Glad to Elaborate if David Lovejoy ever cares to discuss this on the Forum in Person).

Maharaji now claims explicitly never to have claimed he was the 'Lord' when he himself used to sign his name to the Preface of every edition of 'And It is Divine' Magazine just below where it said that there is Never a time when the Lord of all Creation does not take Human Form. (Who else is he gonna be talking about??)

Maharaji Claims some Authority that gives him Ownership of the Techniques of Knowledge. He also Claims to be a 'Master' of this Knowledge, which he describes as Life Itself; a state of Peace Joy and Clarity. Yet Evidence belies the reasonable possibility that he is either conferred with Divine Authority or even has much of an experience of the State that he claims to be a 'Master' of.

There is now Conclusive Evidence about MahaRawats Real Behavior and Character through the Testimony of many who have been around MahaRawat when he is Not 'ON STAGE'. There is Consistent Convincing and Corroborated Testimony that Maharaji has for many many years been an Alcoholic and a heavy cigarette Smoker. That he Is a Adulterer and Womanizer. That he May often be a Pleasant enough Guy, But when he is Drunk he Is Often Abusive. That He has Used His Position to Sexually Use and Abuse his Women 'Devotees'. And That He Has Known about Child Abuse by his Own Initiator Jagdeo for 20 years and Done Nothing to Stop Punish Or Prevent Future incidents...while recently Denying Knowledge of these Horrible Crimes...

MahaRawat, for Years, has taken GREAT pains to Guard these Facts and keep them from his followers, making people around him Swear To keep MahaRawats REAL Behaviors Secret. It is only with the Advent of the Internet that those of Us who were Bamboozled for Years finally have the Facts we Need to Make an Informed Decision on the quality of MahaRawats 'Mastery'.

These are The Facts.

If the alleged David Lovejoy would like to come on this Forum and discuss them Openly and Publicly, then he may gain Credibility...and my Respect...Right Now...He is Just the Ghost Writer for MahaRawats Ongoing Campaign to Cover up the Truth About His Own Lies and Duplicity....Nothing More..Nothing Less...
And about the Accusation that Maharaji has done no Harm to John Macgregor. I can't Speak for John personally. But as a 49 year old who has spent his adult life attempting to follow Maharaji's Teaching..I am only Now waking up to the Devastating Consequences that Maharaji's manipulations and duplicity has Had on My Life. I am Grieving. But for Now, it is my personal Grief and I do Not Wish to Share it here.

So David Lovejoy, If you would like to Honestly and Openly come here and Discuss John or My Posts...or the Facts about MahaRawat..Please Do...You will have my Ear...and I'm sure Others...If Not Then The Sad Conclusion that you are But one Of MahaRawats Apologist Henchmen will Be Confirmed...and you may Crawl back into the Hole that You Came From...And While there...Say Hi to the Captain for Me......RichMandrake...

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 03:30:11 (EST)
From: Vicki
Email: None
To: RichMandrake
Subject: Absolutely BEST Of FORUM
Message:

[nt]

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 01:46:01 (EST)
From: Gail MacDougall
Email: gcmacdougall@yahoo.com
To: SC
Subject: Dear David Lovejoy--You make me sick!
Message:

Do you feel better for having denegrated John McGregor here? I think you are a very little man.

Certainly, you are deluded. I'm glad to hear that you realized Maharaji was not the Lard of the Universe in the mid-seventies. I wish you would have let the rest of us know this precious realization of your.

I, personally, stayed in the cult way too long even though I hated it because I believed Maharaji was the Supreme Power in person. How can a rational person turn his/her back on the creator. He never told me he wasn't.

Furthermore, why do you stay involved? He message is the same, or so he says. He's not divine. Why the necessity to ever see him again or to watch his (groan) boring videos. Why be trapped in the guilt and fear. Those are the true messages of Maharaji.

If you are not brainwash in this cult, why are you still involved?

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 16:51:19 (EST)
From: PatD
Email: None
To: Gail MacDougall
Subject: Re: Dear David Lovejoy--You make me sick!
Message:

Incredible isn't it, all these people who knew that Rawat was a bag o shite but kept it to themselves.

I would call the guy a ****, but I promised someone once not to use that word in public again.

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 07:04:12 (EST)
From: CW
Email: None
To: Gail MacDougall
Subject: Re: Dear David Lovejoy--You make me sick!
Message:

It is not a case of denigrating JMc.If you knew the guy ,you would understand the perspective.David Lovejoy is a quiet circumspect type of guy. You should really be asking why he has bothered to post here.
Take my word on this one Gail. The John thing is out there. Way out there...It's at the very least embarrassingly self indulgent. At worst it's something far more worrying.You have to remember ,we all know John quite well and we also know just what he has been involved with. (EV wise)

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 10:37:04 (EST)
From: Katie
Email: None
To: CW
Subject: Cat, I have to wonder why myself
Message:

That is, I really do wonder why David Lovejoy took the time to write this post to discredit John - especially because he appears to be so busy with the world political situation. And I also wonder why he felt it necessary to reveal a lot of personal information about John.

BTW, your implications about John's situation are pretty rude - I get real tired of hearing how people who leave Maharaji's organization are losing it, going crazy, or whatever. It gets very old. I'm sure people could have said the same thing about me at the time I left (and probably did) - and at several times in my life since then - however, I somehow managed to keep it together and stay sane.

And also, BTW, I have no idea if you know John quite well - that is one of the problems about posting under a pseudonym!

Sincerely,
Katie

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 16:01:15 (EST)
From: CW
Email: None
To: Katie
Subject: not complicated
Message:

In a nutshell? Calling himself a PAM was and is a joke.

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 08:03:14 (EST)
From: Katie
Email: None
To: CW
Subject: Can't you see the difference?
Message:

Calling oneself 'Pam' (as an alias) IS a joke, and is different from calling oneself a 'PAM'.

BTW, ever wonder where the acronym 'PAM' came from?

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 07:28:38 (EST)
From: AJW
Email: None
To: CW
Subject: Cat the Klingon.
Message:

Cat,

You seem like one of those people at a party, who don't have any friends, and goes from one group to another, trying to make intelligent remarks and witticisms, but everybody thinks you're a complete prat.

Haven't you been invited to any parties of your own? haven't you got any friends, or family or something?

Here' read this piece of paper. Read my lips. Read the Bible. Read Anything, but fuck off.

Got it yet?

Anth, who let the creep in this time. Look, I think he's trying to sell copies of the Captain's shite poetry. Somebody throw him out for fucks sake.

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 08:06:37 (EST)
From: CW
Email: None
To: AJW
Subject: Re: Cat the Klingon.
Message:

So unkind Anth. We often have parties , drink Black label and send you joyous 'massages' I love the bullshit about this being an open forum.You sad old soak.

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 11:58:02 (EST)
From: AJW
Email: None
To: CW
Subject: Hey Cat....
Message:

Was your dad an strong personality?

Did you do drugs in the 60s?

Were you confused about life?

Lucky you didn't get caught up in a cult eh?

So, is there anything you wouldn't do if Rawat asked Cat?

Anth the pineapple smile.

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Date: Tues, Nov 13, 2001 at 02:18:39 (EST)
From: CW
Email: None
To: AJW
Subject: Re: Hey Cat....
Message:

My Dad? He was like all those poor bastards that lived through the 40's and 50's.Unfortunately your attempt at amateur psychology is off line.I was at school in the 60's Drugs? In the 70's. Who didn't
No I was never confused about life . Always had a zest for it.
Of course there are things I wouldn't do. It's a totally inane question
But we have come to expect that from you Mr Ginn.......

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 05:05:34 (EST)
From: Pat:C)
Email: pdconlon@hotmail.com
To: Gail MacDougall
Subject: Encore, Gail
Message:

I don't know you but I sure would like to. I hope to hear a lot more from you. I also was sickened by the underlying spitefulness of Lovejoy's message.

Thank you,

Patrick Conlon,

San Francisco

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 10:39:38 (EST)
From: Katie
Email: None
To: Pat:C)
Subject: Gail is great, Pat (sorta ot)
Message:

Maybe this can act as an informal introduction - because I think you and she would like each other. She's a very good friend of Brian's and she used to post on the forum a lot. We've met her in person and are both quite fond of her. She is funny, intelligent, and charming.

Gail, if you're reading this - greetings from both me and Brian :).
Love,
Katie

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 13:32:21 (EST)
From: Pat:C)
Email: None
To: Katie
Subject: Thanks, Katie. Pleased to meet you, Gail [nt]
Message:

[nt]

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 00:18:42 (EST)
From: Jim
Email: None
To: SC
Subject: Of course he won't be participating
Message:

David will not be participating in any forum debate on these issues.

What a thin whitewash! Sorry, SC, but if this is it, if this is the best you've got, you might as well start packing. Of course, Lovejoy won't stick around to defend his post because he knew, even as he wrote it, how woefully inadequate it is for the job. The job, I remind you, is to somehow rehablilitate Maharaji in the face of voluminous, outrageous and completely damning evidence that he's venal, corrupt, dishonest and far, far, far from the Lord of the Universe. Lovejoy barely got his toes wet.

One thing that's apparent in Lovejoy's post is the pains he's taken to mask the seething anger he has for John and Mike. The ad hominem attacks, though, albeit smoother than standard CACweasle grade are just as obvious. The simple fact is that Maharaji did indeed defraud us. It's no small thing to call yourself God. It can hurt and confuse a lot of people.

An unstated premise in most defences of Maharaji is the idea that seeing as he's already a 'Master' he's owed some laxity in terms of maintaining the position. As if he could screw up a bit, lower or change the quality of service (his this time) and still stay on board. As if he could be 'grandfathered in' somehow. Of course any reasonable person would never accept this. The very notion of 'masters', let alone 'divine incarnations', is bizarre. Maharaji entered the stage with that costume on and once it's gone he's got no reason at all to stay on stage. Premies can't see that. They think he's just naturally deserves the mic. Hardly.

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 01:42:22 (EST)
From: Francesca :C)
Email: None
To: Jim
Subject: This part is a lie
Message:

And lots more of it is twisted around whitewash.

David Lovejoy says:
It's also an historical fact that for the first half of the time Maharaji has been in the west it was very hard to hear him. There were printed satsangs, occasional audio tapes and films, . . . . For the last decade or so Maharaji's talks have been videotaped and he is finally in control of his own message. And it doesn't include any stuff about his divinity.

It is not 'an historical fact' that people couldn't understand what M was saying. Every precious word was written down, ad nauseum, of his public talks. His English was not proper, but it was clear what he was saying. And video has been around way longer than 'the last decade or so.' I remember the 'Advent' machines that the communities bought to watch videos around 1976, and videos at the satsang halls were very commonplace by 1980. We watched LOADS of them. Every program was videotaped. And M ranted and he screamed and he preached his divinity in his typically stupid way. Of course, he did not say 'I am God.' What he did was call himself 'Guru Maharaj Ji,' and preach of the total divinity and worship of his own 'Guru Maharaj Ji,' and the unworthiness of the disciples of 'Guru Maharaj Ji.' Since he was our Guru Maharaj Ji, well duhhhhh. I'm afraid it doesn't take a Ph.D. to figure it out.

Truth be told, officially, those old videos were destroyed, although there are still probably some hanging around. And truth be told, he preaches his divinity in private settings still, such as the trainings and smart card premies only programs people have talked about here.

I agree, Jim, that Lovejoy's hostility for MacGregor and McDonald wasn't even thinly veiled. Besides being a cult apologist and twisting around facts, as in the example I started this post with, the other purpose of his post was clearly to tear down MacGregor's and McDonald's credibility since 'PAM's' post has done EV and M's credibility so much harm. Hmm. I wonder if EV asked Lovejoy to write this piece and get it posted?

--f

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 02:27:40 (EST)
From: Francesca ~)
Email: None
To: Francesca :C)
Subject: Something else that's strange
Message:

The other strange thing is if David Lovejoy knew so much about M, was an 'insider,' then why are the only two marks on M's 'mission' Jagdeo, and the Fakirinand attempted murder of Pat Halley incident? Surely he must have known about Mahatma Padarthanand? And what about Guru Charanand's girlfriends? Well, to be fair, maybe he was only a big shot in Australia. He certainly should have known all about Padarthanand then, and why he was sent away from Australia!

So there are two possible conclusions, only two, that I can see here. Either:
1. He was not an insider as he claims to be and has no credibility to disclaim what MacGregor or McDonald have said or
2. He didn't mention Padarthanand's indiscretions because he can't really tell the truth about the cult, so he is not being honest, and thus lacks credibility.

It's either one or the other.

And what about Donner, and Dettmers? He certainly can't say they weren't insiders!!!

--f

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 07:07:45 (EST)
From: CW
Email: None
To: Francesca ~)
Subject: Re: Something else that's strange
Message:

David was the former National contact here in the 70's. He is no longer involved in the organisational side, as he says.
The claims you make about Paddy supposedly occured in the late 80's
They are unfounded.

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 10:43:52 (EST)
From: Abi
Email: None
To: CW
Subject: CV covers up sex abuse again
Message:

I know you aren't stupid so you must be corrupt. You know damn well that Padarthanand is an emotionally and sexually abusive creep. You protect him - what does that make you, huh?

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 13:18:52 (EST)
From: Francesca
Email: None
To: CW
Subject: No unfounded at all
Message:

And I'm sure Lovejoy or some other 'higher up' in Australia knows all about it. Also doesn't matter when it occurred. Lovejoy's post spanned the mission in the West from its inception. And Paddy wasn't the only 'great soul' doing this.

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 12:17:30 (EST)
From: Marianne
Email: None
To: CW
Subject: Catweasel, you are lying about Padarthanand
Message:

Padarthanand sexually and emotionally abused several women in Australia. More misleading garbage, as we've all learned to expect from you.

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 06:12:01 (EST)
From: Nick
Email: None
To: Francesca ~)
Subject: Re: Something else that's strange
Message:

David Lovejoy was the national co-ordinator of DLM UK in 1976. The following quote from the DLM publication 'Premies' July 1976 edition, which was dedicated to a quite disastrous 2 day programme attended by m and 'Durga Ji' in Leicester, reflects the impact the man had and the great affection in which he was held.

'The first speaker is David Lovejoy, our National Director. His job is a difficult one: most of the audience are chatting, everybody is moving around, and in such a large hall it is hard enough to hold an audience. On top of that his language is rather donnish - I wonder, for instance, how many premies know what 'bifurcate' means? - but still, he battles nobly enough with the audience-monster to hold his ground.'

This serves as a good summary for how most would remember him from that time: earnest, distant, quite lacking in emotional intelligence, but doing his service to the best of his ability.

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 05:12:41 (EST)
From: Pat:C)
Email: None
To: Francesca ~)
Subject: Fran, I don't kow how you have the patience
Message:

.....to pick at details. The whole thing is so full of holes, half-truths, rationalizations, justifications, obfuscations, lies by omission and commission and outright bare-faced fibs.

My heart goes out to John McGregor that he has to be smeared in so cowardly a fashion. Of course Lovejoy wouldn't post here and meet his victim face to face. Dis-bloody-gusting.

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 00:13:43 (EST)
From: Sir Dave
Email: None
To: SC
Subject: With hand on heart
Message:

Hand on heart, I have to say that Maharaji did present himself as the Lord of the Universe, God incarnate, The Almighty, come in human form.

I was there throughout the seventies. I heard every single satsang that Maharaji gave and he clearly, very clearly indicated over and over again that he was God. Not a master or a guru, but God himself.

Why else would we have followed him?

The premies who still follow him now are beyond my comprehension. They either still believe that Maharaji is God (but won't admit it) or they have settled for a rather poor substitute.

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 05:32:08 (EST)
From: Zelda
Email: None
To: Sir Dave
Subject: UNETHICAL
Message:

to give details of the daughter 's struggles on this forum . Where do these people get their sense of right and wrong? Oh ya, I forgot there is no such thing as right and wrong if you follow the master.

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 08:23:17 (EST)
From: magiclara
Email: None
To: Zelda
Subject: Re: UNETHICAL
Message:

i totally agree to write his daughters name and private business in this way is appalling. Sadly I am realising that this is the sort of behaviour to be expected from the brain washed devotees of the master.

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 05:43:39 (EST)
From: Pat:C)
Email: None
To: Zelda
Subject: UNETHICAL! But Zelda...
Message:

......what can you expect from people who condone CAC which published the picture of Dave's kid and gave her address and phone number on the internet where every perv on earth could salivate over it?

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 14:39:26 (EST)
From: Pat:C)
Email: None
To: Pat:C)
Subject: J-M, JHB - THIS THREAD NEEDS...
Message:

...a prominent place on EPO, please. Perhaps a link on page one to its own page entitled: ''Expremies Refute Latest Cult Spin Doctoring'' or something like that.

I just feel very honored to be in such great company. Thank you all.

I know I will be saving most of the messages posted by exes (as well as Lovejoy's of course) to mail to my premie friends. Lovejoy really does express what many of the ''thinking PWKs'' believe and the refutations were brilliant.

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 18:59:55 (EST)
From: JHB
Email: None
To: Pat:C)
Subject: I disagree
Message:

EPO already links to all the pro-Maharaji sites, and hosts the forum archives where this thread will end up. There is already so much information that deserves prominence on EPO it is impossible to feature it all. Lovejoy's post is nasty and vindictive, and he has no interest in debate. I'm happy for it to sink into obscurity. Of course the responses are excellent, but that is the standard we are blessed with both here on the forum and on EPO.

John.

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 03:34:28 (EST)
From: Jean-Michel
Email: None
To: JHB
Subject: My seat is at stake here, need to meditate more
Message:

well, let me think about it for a couple of weeks.

Lovejoy's defense of maharajism is nothing new here !

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 01:00:58 (EST)
From: Francesca
Email: None
To: JHB
Subject: It should be a BEST OF FORUM
Message:

Even thought Lovejoy's post is cult apologia, some of the replies are quite succinct. I think it's good to counter this stuff in a Best of Forum link. That way it wouldn't be featured on EPO, but would be saved with the stuff that is a cut above.

Just my two cents.

--f

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 08:23:52 (EST)
From: Katie
Email: None
To: Francesca
Subject: I disagree, Francesca
Message:

Here's why - Lovejoy's post contains a lot of personal information and slurs about John McG., and I honestly don't think it deserves a BEST of Forum since it would mean that personal stuff would be promulgated.

(Sorry about the inflated verbiage - e.g. promulgated - I've been writing for work!)

JMHO, as always -
Love,
Katie

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Date: Tues, Nov 13, 2001 at 03:29:06 (EST)
From: Jean-Michel
Email: None
To: Katie
Subject: I agree with Katie
Message:

as a FA, I'd even have erased the sentence about his daughter .... you know I'm a cyberstalker of course.

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Date: Tues, Nov 13, 2001 at 00:23:42 (EST)
From: Francesca
Email: None
To: Katie
Subject: The personal stuff would have to be edited out
Message:

You are right about that. I'd just hate to lose some of the replies. Pat Wilson took a lot of time on his. I will be glad, as JHB says, to see those personal revelations sink below the horizon.

I like big wurds. I use them at work too, as well as at play, and some of them are more descriptive than, like, you know!!!

Love,

--f

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Date: Tues, Nov 13, 2001 at 16:20:30 (EST)
From: Deborah
Email: None
To: Francesca
Subject: How about **Worse of Forum**
Message:

This way we could have a page for the worse attempts to communicate on the forum. People could read for themselves how lame and low the apologists are stooping.

This way, people do not have to get disappointed when they want to read good stuff.

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Date: Tues, Nov 13, 2001 at 08:54:24 (EST)
From: Katie
Email: None
To: Francesca
Subject: Re: The personal stuff would have to be edited out
Message:

Hi F -
Yes, most of the replies were great (although how come these threads always degenerate into fights with CW and SC?)

Re big words - I'm not even sure 'Promulgate' was the right word! That's why I apologized. It's an EPA word - snicker.

Love,
Katie

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Date: Tues, Nov 13, 2001 at 13:12:59 (EST)
From: Pat:C)
Email: None
To: Katie
Subject: Re: The personal stuff would have to be edited out
Message:

All references to a third party who is neither a premie or an ex have been removed.

As for your question, Katie, (''how come these threads always degenerate into fights with CW and SC?'') I would have thought the answer was obvious: that's what they are here to provoke.

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Date: Tues, Nov 13, 2001 at 14:08:28 (EST)
From: Francesca ~)
Email: None
To: Pat:C)
Subject: ***BEST OF FORUM or at least ...
Message:

... read this and take heed.

As for your question, Katie, (''how come these threads always degenerate into fights with CW and SC?'') I would have thought the answer was obvious: that's what they are here to provoke.

After all, as Smokey the Bear once said:
'Only you, you, you can prevent forest fires!.'

--f

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Date: Tues, Nov 13, 2001 at 14:44:48 (EST)
From: Pat:C)
Email: None
To: Francesca ~)
Subject: Re: ***BEST OF FORUM or at least ...
Message:

I'd like to edit out all the CW/SC shit but don't have the time as they will then simply start spamming with repetitious posts. It's best just to ignore them.

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 13:54:53 (EST)
From: Pat:C)
Email: None
To: Katie
Subject: I was being sarcastic when I said
Message:

...Lovejoy's post should be BEST OF.

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 19:31:18 (EST)
From: Pat:C)
Email: None
To: JHB
Subject: Re: I disagree - on second thoughts
Message:

I was just thinking that the exes responses were such crystalized versions of the usual reponses we've been writing for ages that it would be nice to have them in one place. But you have given me second thoughts about it. But....god some of the exes stuff in this thread is just sooo damn good.

As far as I'm concerned Rawat's scam is finished in the west. We can pack up and go home. I still have a few premie friends of the church-lady or fringe variety. I am hoping that they get out soon because it seems the only ones left are the rich jetset hardline cult apologists who may have financial considerations as well as spiritual.

The CAC attack has hardened my attitude towards these fanatics. I do not like being threatened and would like to see them being held accountable. Other than that I simply await the mass exodus. I guess most former premies will not need to become exes as the exes have done their job. It's nearly over. Now I just want to hear the fat guru sing. On second thoughts - I don't. My poor ears.

I suppose we'll still have a job here helping former premies to recover.

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 21:24:11 (EST)
From: la-ex
Email: None
To: Pat:C)
Subject: Pat: The Fat-Guru HAS sung....
Message:

I know it aint over 'til the fat lady sings, but I think you missed the important fact that in this case the Fat-Guru HAS sung...

One of the last drips for me was 1-2 years ago when I went to a video and m was braying like a wounded donkey in heat on stage along with his daughter daya...

I don't think premies ever heard him sing before and when I watched the curious, intrigued look on the premies faces, and the hushed reverence and subsequent 'bliss' from watching him singing on stage, I instantly knew that this sort of 'bliss' was simply not for me anymore.....

I had put up with the devotional excesses and ridiculous worshipping for years, but this one pushed me over the edge.....it was the beginning of the end or the end of the beginning, or whatever, but I clearly knew that I didn't belong with this 'master' or this crowd of followers anymore.....the only person I think that sings worse than m is me, and I wouldn't wish that on any person, much less promote myself on videos and send them all over the world to thousands of people....so I think maybe it is over, and the fat lady has sung...

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 22:09:08 (EST)
From: Pat:C)
Email: None
To: la-ex
Subject: Yes, La-ex, the fat guru did bray
Message:

It was the second to last drip for me.

By ''sing'' here I mean fess up and tell us that he is a conman. I'm waiting for that. It will help to ease a lot of pain and confusion in quite a few socalled spaced-out premies whom I know.

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 19:42:16 (EST)
From: JHB
Email: None
To: Pat:C)
Subject: I'm not so sure
Message:

Macgregor said that most premies he knows hadn't heard of the Jagdeo or cyclist stories. I still think most western premies haven't read EPO or this forum, and if that's so, they are still in the same place they were when the first exes posted on the net. We still have work to do:-)

John.

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 04:25:17 (EST)
From: Peg
Email: None
To: JHB
Subject: There are still loads of premies
Message:

Who quietly keep maharaji as their true focus, I know loads of them, and I don't get about that much. Some people don't do much, go to the occaisional programme or video, but they are in the cult even so and they are not free. Lots of people don't know about epo and lots of people who do ( I was called 'one of those computer people') would NEVER look, it feels like a mortal sin. I think it takes a hell of a lot to get rid of one of these cults...look at Scientology and Rajneesh - leaders dead, exposees all over the shop but still loads of people are into it. I feel very lucky at the moment.

Peg

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 19:53:27 (EST)
From: PatD
Email: None
To: Peg
Subject: Re: There are still loads of premies
Message:

Apart from the premies;

I sometimes wonder how many people have drifted away from this trip over the years, but who now & then wake up in the middle of the night saying to themselves, 'oh shit have I've blown life's great chance because I walked away from God Incarnate'.

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Date: Sun, Nov 11, 2001 at 20:14:15 (EST)
From: Pat:C)
Email: None
To: JHB
Subject: JHB: ''We still have work to do.''
Message:

Oh goody!

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 03:45:29 (EST)
From: Tonette
Email: None
To: Pat:C)
Subject: It really is a public service.
Message:

What happens on this forum. All that is archived here. The people who take their time and effort to maintain it and the participants who post here. In my book it is a very much needed public service.
I would love to be able to calculate approximately how many premies are now free of this cult because of this place, from the information and dialogue they were exposed to, here on the forum.

Fondly, Tonette

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Date: Mon, Nov 12, 2001 at 04:11:21 (EST)
From: Pat:C)
Email: None
To: Tonette
Subject: It sure helped me and ....
Message:

...it's great watching new folks arrive and see the light - no not that one. ;)

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