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Interesting day. I
picked up Mike Dettmers today from Gatwick airport
and he is now upstairs asleep in my spare room. We
had a pleasant evening meal at 'Topolino's' and
have had some nice chat with a few local
friends.
In my usual diplomatic spirit, I tried to
interest Glen Whittaker in talking about the
ex-premie issues with Mike whilst he's in town.
This mission failed when Glen politely declined to
speak with him. Anyway Mike has been making some
efforts to contact Raja Ji, who is apparently in
England at present. Maybe they will chat - who
knows?
I think that premies / Maharaji are probably
undecided yet as to whether to adopt a policy of
strictly 'no negotiation' with critics, or whether
some placatation may be considered inevitable.
Certainly many of the PAM's, despite their feelings
of loyalty, do seem to be privately admitting that
this forum and the revelations thereof are a
healthy development. (the revelations are
incidently almost all true as far as I can now see
- anyway I am certain enough to put my name at the
top of this post in good conscience) .
A couple of other telephone calls tonight. One
from someone who wishes to remain anonymous and who
dictated to me the following, to post on the forum.
This is simply what they wanted me to post - I
trust this person but they are not my words (in
italics):
Premies in Miami are busy shredding documents
pertaining to the past. ie. ashram application
forms with signed vows, financial records of DLM/EV
companies etc.
Also Maharaji is reported to be reading this
site on a fairly regular basis. (Mike Donner
please send your $50 for losing that bet)
Supposedly he finds these revelations about his
past behaviours even quite liberating because he no
longer has to make any efforts to keep them secret.
( I always knew that we were doing 'service'
here all along).
So, having had the chance to talk a little with
Mike Dettmers it is now quite clear to me (just
from the emails he's picking up and from what he
and these other callers have said) that there is
really a lot of interest in this site at all
levels.
What also impressed me is that both Dettmers and
I are both clearly motivated largely by the desire
to uphold principles here, not so much because of
feelings of personal anger or regret.
That is not to say that I don't feel some
frustration that there is a need in the first
place, in this matter of something that I trusted
to be about Truth, God and Goodness, to have to
ever examine whether my Masters behaviour was even
more lacking in integrity than anything I could
have come up with in my most sordid moments.
Specifically it seems a very sorry state that a
seeker of truth ends up having to deal with the
fact that their master himself has taken
considerable steps to cover up even the most basic
truths about the things that go on in his private
life. The bigger truth it seems does not, in this
case, inspire even such fundamental honesty in he
who claims to be in touch with the highest
inspiration.
What hope is there for us? I say we should very
carefully examine our lives and not be afraid to
put those who would be our Masters to the test.
Basically I am putting my trust in a higher God
-and at the moment that means my better judgement -
which has proved to be a more trustworthy
resource.
In truth, I see that this is not a story whose
conclusion we can avoid being a part of. At best we
can take some responsibility in our lives and stand
up for what truthful and sincere values and
longings we put into this thing in the first place.
We can change this story from being a wasteful
tragedy, into a story where truth wins, and lies,
cover-ups, travesties of truth, are seen for what
they are. We are writing the history book here. Not
just him. We can do some real good now by demanding
that Maharaji comes clean. It is a travesty that
the Master's pupils have to expose his hypocrisies
rather than he admit them with an honest and
forthcoming attitude.
If this knowledge is so great then where is the
strength of character of the Master who is
supposed, surely, to be the ultimate example of the
benefits of his teaching?
Is it not suspicious that his most ardent
followers are having such a crisis of confidence?
That at this stage the fruits of his labours are
notably his enormous wealth and a society of
stilted premies who speak in terms of donations and
the cold distribution of Knowledge by DVD -and less
of personal and infectious happiness and
inspiration? You want to be around the Master -
you'd better be prepared to pay for that priviledge
nowadays. Those privy to participation meetings
will probably know what I mean.
I am rather shocked that so many people, like
myself, who approached this man and his teachings
with so much sincerity, are hesitant to stand up,
in the face of these unfolding facts, to question
the many contradictions that are coming to light.
You should be ashamed of yourselves if you don't
try to understand the truth about what is going on
with Maharaji in this world. You should be ashamed
if you are assuming it is the spotless 'show of the
Master' and have disengaged your conscience and
need to discern the truth. You should be ashamed if
it is merely convenient for you to not re-examine
the integrity of your trusted leader. Would you be
party to lies? For how long?
Maharaji is right that time is precious. I do
not wish to be half-hearted about my commitment to
truth. That is why I take these discussions so
seriously. That is why I am trying not to throw the
baby out with the bathwater. If I can redeem some
truth and inspiration from the years of sincere
meditation, dedication and sacrifice -I shall.
Maharaji most definitely should talk not to, but
with those people who, in his power play, have felt
abused, confused, or simply still have misgivings
.
One of my main bug-bears has been simply 'Why do
I have to feel embarrased about introducing loved
ones to this experience?'. I wish to God I had the
strength of faith (and hadn't been required to vow
not to do) to show this meditation, with love and
care to those who were interested.
Maharaji now caw can afford to retire as a
multi-millionare. That is surely a fact. The
air-brushed image of who he is we now know to be
innaccurate. Many of us gave up our lives, our
youths, to put him and his family in clover - as he
effectively is now materialistically. He and his
family live hugely opulent lifestyles based
entirely on the efforts of premies, who have either
donated their own money or made him the benefactor
and shareholder in a multitude of their businesses.
What did he do to deserve this?
He 'showed' Knowledge - but then this is
supposed to be something we already have. Did he
really do that? What do we really owe him? What do
we owe ourselves in all this?
This Knowledge is by no means proven to be the
sole property of this man in my opinion. I fail to
see why it derives soley from him - why his part
gives him such authority over people? Are we not
all God's creatures too?? He's just winging it
anyway isn't he? He's made mistakes hasn't he? Why
can we not run with our inspirations and spread
this knowledge ourselves?
Because he has, over the years, convinced us,
from the outset, that this is not a possibility.
Furthermore it is not allowed. It is a condition
not to share this. It is to be a most private
obsession. You are to refer people to the
appropriate channel. (even if it is so cultic and
cold as to be the last thing you would wish to
impose upon your friends) .
What happened to us becoming 'like the Master'?
Remember that? I remember hearing M saying we would
all become like him. When??? When were gasping our
last breath?? When you reach 70?
I strongly urge anyone who is a premie to really
become proactive to engage Maharaji and premies to
answer all their misgivings. I believe that most
premies put their sincerity, their heart and soul
into this with great trust. That is a lot to give.
There is a lot to explain still.
When premies develop misgivings they should not
be told to 'Walk' - to shut up -to bottle their
feelings. The result of that practice is
self-evident in this forum and the whisperings in
the divided premie community we see today.
We should all re-unite. So-called 'exes' have not
stopped pursuing the truth. I for one will never
admit to being an ex-seeker, or for that matter an
ex-lover of God. I owe it to my creator who I still
love with all my heart to try to shed light on all
the dark areas which I encounter where fear and
confusion lurks. And so to bed.
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