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It is becoming more
and more apparent to me just how little premies
know about what is going on.
In the last week I have told two people about
the Jagdeo revelations and IT WAS THE FIRST TIME
EITHER OF THEM HAD HEARD ANYTHING ABOUT IT. One of
them is now becoming an ex (WPC girl). The other I
just spoke to this morning. I told her about
Jagdeo, Fakiranand and the yacht. She knew nothing
about any of it. I wasn't worried about
destabilising her too abruptly because she has been
drifting off for a while now. She listened and at
first said she didn't care about all that stuff,
but gradually as she took it all in, she began to
use her discrimination and said she'd have to
seriously think about it all. And knowing her as I
do, she will.
I couldn't have had that converation with a
premie who was going to videos all the time - they
are just too brainwashed, almost scarily so.
This is all becoming clearer and clearer to me.
My second friend is going to read EPO when she gets
back from holiday; she's distanced enough not to
worry about any command from on high not to look at
it.
The seriously brainwashed ones DAREN'T look at
it in case Maharaji somehow knows, and PUNISHES
them! I know this to be true, because
(embarrassingly) it's what I felt when I first had
a look a couple of years ago. I felt sort of
guilty, and thought that everyone there was
seriously 'in their minds'. I even remember having
a conversation with a premie about it, and we both
agreed that the people on EPO and the forums are
still 'obsessed' by M and K. We thought: if they've
had enough, why don't they just walk away?
M seems to be so oblivious to how the Jagdeo
issue and his refusal to face it, has caused and
will continue to cause people to leave in droves.
It makes him look so BAD.
In order to remain in the cult while knowing
about the Jagdeo issue, a premie has to engage in
serious disassociation of the type spoken about in
a thread below. They have to enter an extremely
dubious moral universe, and seem unable to see that
the morals there are a million miles from the
spiritual values that probably drew them to and
kept them with M and K in the first place.
It's all so weird, and it's probably morally
damaging to them as well.
Another thing: I was talking on the phone on
Thursday night to a premie about the forthcoming
phone thing with Yorum Weiss. She knew what it was
all going to be about - the dismantling of EV etc.
I asked her what she thought about it all and she
said: 'Oh, it's really beautiful!' And I knew
immediately that if M was about to quadruple the
size and activities of EV, and I had asked her the
same question, she would have said: 'Oh, it's
really beautiful!'
In other words, it all comes down to them
thinking that whatever he does is perfect because
he is perfect. (They don't really let themselves
think he's 'The Lord' any more, but they have this
new catch-phrase: the purity of the master.) But
here is some double-think: they also now allow
themselves to believe he is imperfect in some ways,
he gets things wrong occasionally like he can be
chauvinistic, or he likes dirty jokes, smokes,
drinks (a little), eats red meat. Maybe doesn't
even meditate! And somehow that's all fine. And if
you challenge them on the logical front, they sneer
at the concept of 'logic'. God, it would be
hilarious if it wasn't so sad.
I suppose soon the only people left will be the
seriously deluded, morally and ethically vacuous
shadows of the people they once were.
Phew.
With love, Livia
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